enjoy.the.sweetness.

2011-01-25T15:38:00.002+08:00

I wish...I wish....

i know i am not good in anything

that include my language, be it both mandrain and english

but i know i am trying

i just wish that

my afford will be seen

it is not like i am stupid

it is just pure errors

when 3 pairs of eyes are staring at me and my screen

and time is rushing

error is something that cannot be help =(

But i am definately not stupidT.T

2011-01-24T01:04:00.002+08:00

sometime, my mood just feel so terribly down. I really hate it when there are so many things crashing down at one time. Project, friends and relationship. the feeling really sucks to the max!!!!

friendship.
i cant help but to feel that sometimes there is nothing for us to talk about with my W.They seems to click so so well.. i feel like the odd one out. though this is not what it really is, and every time they plan outing, they never forget about me. but i am always the one having reason and couldn't meet them. i really feel very upset not to meet up with them. i really love meeting them.. go out with them.. relax with them. the laughter and joy we all share and there is nothing can take them away except for ourselves.

they will be aways for holi to bankok soon, and i can make it as it is still kinda dangerous. all girls and no guy protection, feels scary. but i can imagine so much fun with them.

recently i feel that, i become quieter, less topic to share with my friend. seldom go out with them too or hang around after sch or during breaks. could it be they forgotten about me? but some times i still cant help it but to think that i got nothing to talk to them about.

i feel so helpless when they are happily talk and chatting while i am the one keeping quiet and join in the laughter.

am i really that quiet? it really dun feels like me. where is the chatty me? gone? forever? this is not what i want to be. i wanna hang around with my friends. i wanna have plenty things to chat with them.

i dont wanna keep silent and eventually vanish in their world.

2010-09-09T15:28:00.004+08:00

RayBan Aviator shades.

Thanks to my sis!!!
she was browsing through sunglass hut to see what aviator spect she should get, and that arouse me into getting one too!! =D

After all the selection (no brown, no blue coz not durable and does not block much sunlight, no mirrored, no polarized) And i wanted something that is dark, and people don't get to see my eyes so easily, I decided to get this

This is Gold Frame with no polorized or mirror. Pretty nice though and this reminds me of Zac who acted in "Seventeen again" movie, and he wore something similiar.. or maybe it is the same =D but i couldn't get a up close of what color frame he wearing. Is either Gold or Silver. duh!

There was a few other choice like black frame and silver.

The is the one with silver frame. Pretty nice i would say BUT it cost $179.95 because it have polorize on the glass to help reflect the sunlight. Otherwise, i WILL get this!

This is the one with black frame. I would say it is pretty "heavy" though, maybe because it is all black and kinda..... manish. This cost 139.95. still reasonable.

2010-09-07T09:26:00.001+08:00

A yummy breakfast with dad, makes me start my day with a big big SMILE =D

If there is chance, i would like to have breakfast like that every morning, It'll definately be the thing i'll be looking forward to =)

2010-09-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

One paper down, 3 more to go.

Jiayou =D

2010-09-06T13:27:00.001+08:00

Today is my first paper - Human Resource Information System

Sometimes i just feel like puting everything aside during this period of time.

2010-08-25T02:01:00.001+08:00

2010-08-25T01:46:00.002+08:00

Bleed - Hot Chelle Rae.

I feel like I'm drowning in ice water
My lips have turned a shade of blue
I'm frozen with this fear
That you may disappear
Before I've given you the truth

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here (I'm dying here)
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I bleed my heart out just for you

I've always dreamed about this moment
And now it's here and I've turned to stone
I stand here petrified
As I look you in your eyes
My head is ready to explode

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I bleed my heart out just for you

And it's all here in
Black and white and red
For all the times
Those words were never said

I bleed my heart out on this paper for you
So you can see what I can't say
I'm dying here
'Cause I can't say what I want to
I bleed my heart out just for you

I bleed my heart out just for you

2010-08-14T03:27:00.002+08:00

Pet Farm =D

A place where peanut can run about without having to apologies to anybody =D
Bought pea there last sat with sis, her husband and her friend andy, who also bring along the dong "ah boy" (now name laughing) which i saved it from rain last time.

"ah boy" is a horny dog!!! he chase after pea and do the silly action *tsk* pea is also a boy!!!
and that is the problem.

had much fun and laughter =D
Hope pea enjoy it too =DD

2010-08-12T03:04:00.003+08:00

Saturday - a relaxing day =D

how i wish.....
- every weekend i'm able to accompany my <3
- have more time with family
- have more communication with them

making dumpling that i like =D

2010-08-12T02:07:00.007+08:00

Tuesday.

done with FYP1!! YEA!!!
but i do feel kinda sad though... i did not contribute much ='( pretty sad huh?!!

i mean.. i'm coding idiots luh!!! but still i did try in the first place and came out with the layout of the ordering template right =(

didnt take photo on the day of presentation D= *sad*

Maybe we were too concentrate on what we might have missed, what question they might be asking, what are the ways we should answer them... and there goes the thought of having picture taken.

And, on the same day is heng's birthday... Happy 22nd Old Man *he call himself that ;)*

eh.... there is extra lenght in his belt so when he pull out, he say look like the shape of c*** =.=

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Wednesday.

Had the last lesson of sales management.
kinda miss the lesson and friend now ='(

i dislike the lesson, but now there is no more such lesson, i kinda miss it ='( sadly

today is Michelle's 21st birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL =D

2010-08-03T01:05:00.005+08:00

T.H.I.S I.S F.O.R M.Y B.E.S.T F.I.R.E.N.D SHIMIN.

hope she read this =D

Dear Girl,

i'm still here, and will always be

i never left my blog since i make it open =)

i know you are stress with your study, just hope that i'll be another friend you will though of when you find that you don't want to bother others =)

recalling the times we know each other... years back.. to be accurate (2004 June till now Aug), it's been 6 years since we know each other =DD how time really files.

1st year, you were bothered by "his" appearence, we had become closer each day, from you don really like me, till we are so close that we share thoughts with each other. Although, sometimes our opinion does not match, but thank you. Thank you for hearing my advise =) but i fail to do my part as your best friend (daughter) later in the year i got attach and things were crazy for us.we meet up lesser after school, go out lesser during holidays. reason: attched and work =((

2nd year, we still communicate, we still find each other at class, but you and baoyan come find me more!!! =D i really feel bad about this.. i never want to drift apart from you guys.. you guys were great friends!! friend that i never thought i would cause it to break apart.I'm really sorry. but i'm so thank you that you guys still try to find me and ask me out when there is gathering

=D

3rd year, thing this is the crazier year for you, i twisted everything around, i crush every thing between you and me, and it is on your birthday D'=. The thought of it now still make me feel very very remorseful, still thinking to myself, why am i such a lousy friend. this is the year our friendship wreck. though it's been 3 years, but every scence is still fresh and deeply in my mind and my heart still twist when i recall what happen. this is the year i lost a friend that is actually greatly to me, but i neglect it.

4th year, we hardly communicate at all.... maybe till the end of the year??? few occasion msg??

5th year, a light appears as we begin to communicate more compare to the previous year =) that definate being grins to my face and now it still does when i'm typing it =))

6th year (this year), i believe we are getting better? =D*wide smile* msges were flying around and between us. very soon we are meeting up for gathering =) i'll sure be there girl =)

* sometimes when talking to my gf about you and our past, i cant help but address you as "mom" then i have to change to "sam" =D oh well... you are still my best friend girl =D

2010-05-27T00:46:00.002+08:00

my sweetest love

i know i love you in many many unexplained ways.

but, do you know?

i am very sure you do =D

you are the sunshine in my life.

whenever i'm sad, i know you will be there for me.

even though is some minor arguements in us,

we will be angry and back face each other.

but i know we are not angry with each other,

but angry with ourselves for being bad to each other and getting angry with each other.

ytd u left me alone downstairs.

i'm at fault.

i know you didnt do it on purpose because you came back down after that

and i know it in my hear that you are very very sorry for doing that =D

though i already left,

the moment you call me,

i know it straight that you hate yourselve.

dun be, silly.

just promise that you wont throw me alone ever again.

*promised*

2010-05-21T14:21:00.002+08:00

i read my friend, Charmaine's blog, and i love the word her friend told her.

"Our day gotta be filled with SHIT sometimes, then can be happy days be all the more worth rejoicing. Sometimes we drive on the road of life innocently, and people will just throw their trash on us but we gotta take it as a pinch of salt."

Not everything will go the way we plan, and her friend said: "Just treat them like 'farting'! " i like it!! =D Continue " the toxin in them is too poisonous, they just gotta let it out. If you pick up everyone's shit, you will end up smelly and bitter."

"But we don't neccessary have to take them in and let the shit rest in pur hearts."

At one point of time, i am so angry with someone in particular, but after reading her post, i'm smiling and all the word make sense. And i realise i've been wasting my time making my heart feel angry and get nothing done. What a waste.

Thanks Charmaine for sharing what your friend said to you =)

2010-05-14T00:28:00.002+08:00

if we have........

-airplane, we will fly across the pacific ocean and round the earth

-a chance to see a close up shooting stars, i wont mind fly the airplane up in the skies.

-a chance to make wishes, i would make it when i'm close up to the shooting stars so they can hear me better.

-the chances to see airplain that are like shooting stars, i'll hug you to the fullest, look into your eyes and say "iloveyou"

2010-05-12T10:57:00.003+08:00

in my previous post,

i mention i kinda miss the friend of mine and i kinda lost it.

but that does not i mean i don't miss the rest of my friends

i missed all my friend.

my ITE friend,

Even though i'm in poly now, i still misses my friend as we are no longer close like how we use to be.

i have 4 classes so far, but i only keep in touch with my year 2 sem 1 friend and is only 3 of them.

the rest of my friend all become my Hi-Bye friend which is something i am upset about.

In year 1, things were so happening. everywhere i go, we smile and say HIIIII.

but now,we pretend we never see each other, we never chat nothing!

2010-05-07T00:20:00.002+08:00

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

how nice it is to have your own group of friends who is always by your side,
giving you entertainment
supporting you
be there for you
have a sense of belong.

how i wish i have all this too
but,
i'm not as lucky as most of you
my friends have long gone.

i am starting not to know the meaning of having friends anymore.
for i dont feel it anymore.
how to make friend?
how to communicate with friend?
how to get friend that you can laugh with?

i am always finding.

but i really not know how to make af friend anymore
people are getting more and more fake
i'm confuse by which side of you is the REAL you.
which side of you can be TRUSTED.

are you really my friend? or you trying not to be so bad by dumping me else where and walk away?

i guess i no longer trust the word FRIEND.
till somebody show me what is the real meaning of friend.

2010-05-07T00:05:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i felt so lonely,
just to wish that.....
- i have somebody when i'm alone
- know i can contact you with i'm down and lost
- know you will always be ther person i can relay on
- know you will always be there for me
- know no matter what happen to us, you never lost your way to know
- know why i cant social with you
- know why i cant social with everybody
- know why i'm alone most of the time
- know where i belong.

sometimes in life,
it just feel so down down down
down to a limit where i want to hide me self to this little corner where nobody can find me
till then, when someone found me, the person will hug me tight and ask me not to ever make myself disappear again.
even if the person who found me is a friend, how i wish i will hear it from you.

how i wish someone can tell me i'm somehow important. but till this point, no.
i know i am not at all important.
things wont be a slight different without me, it might even get better with me not around.

sometimes i wonder what am i doing here,
be people's burden
waste all the resources
waste your time knowing me

somwtime, how i wish i can just disappear.
even if i do, nobody will even notice a slight different and they dont even know i'm not there anymore. or maybe, people dont even know my exist!

2010-05-06T23:55:00.002+08:00

was browsing through when i came across this picture
i smiled.
thinking back how good last time was
how we stand and be there for one another

whenever we are sad, we know there will always be a supporter at the back giving you shoulder, tissue and giving you support.

but things wont be the same anymore.
we are not sure if the support is still there
or only left pieces of tissue just like how a soccer match end and all it left wad rubbish and layer of dust.

nothing can go back to last time, where we use to joke and smile at every comment we made.

i miss those friendship we build over a year.
but somehow, sad to say, this friendship, i somehow find it hard to feel it anymore.

we once said,
-no matter what happen, we will be there for each other
-a shoulder to lean on to cry
-a pair of ears for you to rant about your unhappiness
-a smile for you to share your joy

i know it well that all this is very hard to get back
and wont ever be the same
i admit, i have lost a friend.

but still, i hope you can always find a reason to SMILE =)
and i'll still be here is you need a ears to rant during your down time.
need a companion, i'll still try to be there....

2010-04-27T15:39:00.000+08:00

lesson ended early today =))

HR isnt that scary after all
hahaha

ended at 3.30 =)))

2010-04-22T14:41:00.001+08:00

was looking through HER WORLD
and came across this perfume sample.

smell nice!
is a consider to buy =))

2010-04-07T00:47:00.004+08:00

Matchbox 20 - Unwell

2010-04-04T01:11:00.003+08:00

stupid me

still thinking things will work out for everybody

fug bast

stop being naive candy

people just think you are acting!

in the first place you should just dont bother and drop everthing

back to zero!

but sad to say, this is the way i am

if you think i'm acting, by all means.

you can leave anytime, i'm not holding you back anymore because when i wanna put it back to pieces, you choose to throw it again. so what is the point now? wan me knee down and beg you?

( if you think i'm refering to you, *slap head* oh plsssssssssssss)

there you are close to me

i told you everything

next moment you are so MIA

so so so MIA

gosh you think i'll wanna share much things with you ever again?

you are so act too

pop it.

2010-04-04T00:59:00.002+08:00

thanks for the exposes.
now i know everything
everything you hide from me

not wanting to talk to me
avoid me
find me irritating
lame ass huh.
fug,fug,fug.

2010-04-04T00:55:00.002+08:00

after so much of so, guess it is time to delete someone's picture =)
memories is there,
but pictures,
sucks

just remind me of how great the time WAS.

moving on in life is good
some bother to pick up the pieces but some just dont bother
and just leave the pieces scattered all over the floor and let it be
that's.

why is it so difficult to face the reality?
fault was being pushed around
fug.

2010-03-23T11:32:00.003+08:00

haven been updating post since sch vacation starts!
life been busy, working and meeting and meeting up with love.

gonna meet my lovely OH sister later hope we'll take loads of pictures =))

*now you are not around. feels so weird. thou you are off to camp for only 4 days,
i miss you deeply.*

2010-02-18T02:33:00.002+08:00

how can CNY be any happier when someone you know for long

just pass away?

reach home from work and got the news from dad that one of our old neighbour from old flat just past away

dad still intent to see him after CNY as we cant celebrate this year. so as to prevent bad luck, he decided to see him after CNY

but i told him is just visiting and not celebrating CNY

how long you wan to wait???

but now, we got no more chance to see him or talk to him anymore =(

rest in peace gong gong

*i never will forget him*

2010-02-18T01:49:00.002+08:00

is it so breakable?
using each other is fun?
*backoff* and this is really pissing me off
never in my life have i ever thought that friends will actually use each other
i treat my friend using the real meaning of a friend
using them was NEVER in my list *roars*

why must friend use each other in the first place?
why cant they just contribute each other points and eventually share ideas and know each other and knowing that they will be there when you need them like my sec sch friend?
evern for months we never contact, but we know they will always be there whenever we need them.

why the meaning of friend can be modify into such a complicated meaning?

i'm starting to not know what is the meaning of friend OR how should i treat a friend.

i'm confuse by the world.

2010-02-10T00:04:00.002+08:00

a BIG WHY?

i've totally have no idea who the hell are you [ ;( ]

yet you know things about me?!

this is freak! and is freaking out!

i aint timid like what cha said.

for this you dont have to know why am i still not doing anything to the advise cause you know nothing about me.

thanks for the advise but no thanks, you are just acting on another burden in my life which i dont need it now.

i shall hack care,

comment all you want

i aint gonna care anymore

; tired

2010-02-09T19:15:00.002+08:00

Love you sweet pumkin

days spent with you has always been lovely :)

all the laughter and smile we had each day :))

you said you felt crappy, i would say it is meltykiss.

2010-02-08T11:39:00.001+08:00

1 down; 3 more to go =)

head to airshow ytd and got burn n tanned.
maybe i show get a tan once a week.
gaining back the skin tone i once used to have and it is great to have the healthy look back!
*dead* i cannot get fair skin because i'll look pale and sick! urgh...

dark skin give me healtier look :)

2010-02-03T14:31:00.003+08:00

thinks been happening happening happening
and this is last week of school!!!

UT3 next week and i ain't preparing.

tanning was great over the weekend but i am not having enough
shall go again once hols start!!

last week of lesson and the class is happening
people finally doing stuff...

work been like there is no tomorrow
and UT is getting closer with the tick of every minutes!

saw jin today
kinda happy
haha
he is still the same oldself and keep shining his white teeth at me
*crush*
haha
yea happy morning to start with.
he is still having that cheeky look :)
always thought he is nice even till now :)

you aint a puppet

never treat it this way

is it time for miracle ?

not yet..

2010-01-26T12:47:00.003+08:00

2010-01-25T09:20:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really do feel this way

late at night when i was lying on my bed

thought just run through my mind

every night is the same thought

every night have to go through the same process

*sigh*

why is there so much things to consider?

why is there so much things to decide?

once the decision made, i still have to think twice again

*double sigh*

2 person is standing infront of me

and is of different sexes.

i wont pick to 'turn' base on them

it'll all depend on me =(

rich, not tall, fair skin, 'eat potato', caring, observance, super considerate, love heartedly, willing to do anything and so blah blah blah

2010-01-20T11:47:00.004+08:00

What is F.R.I.E.N.D.S?
i guess i start to lost the meaning of it.

i start to forget how to make friend.

am i too anti-social?
too quiet?
keep my mouth shut too tight?
or i really lost the ways to make friend?
cant communicate with them?

All of above, i guess i'm just being too quiet, refuse to talk to any of them, most of the time.
No common topic :(

i misses all my friends.

(but where have they gone to?)

2010-01-20T09:10:00.002+08:00

i've been falling down for the past few days
i know you care coz you keep asking me what happen when we meet up..

thanks =)

it is really nice when someone love you when everything does not make sense at all...

dun be sad

2010-01-20T09:01:00.003+08:00

i like this phrase :)

if you never try to break,

you will never know if you are able to.

but if you try,

there wont have any regrets.

" love actually is simple, but people make it c o m p l i c a t e d"

2010-01-16T01:26:00.004+08:00

If only i can be sleep walking beauty

(but i am not)

If only my prince charming is waiting

(but i know it won't come true and will never be)

If only i can be a princess

(but i know i won't because i'll always be the ugly duckling)

If only i know where my prince is

(maybe he sisn't make it in this life/ or god didn't create him)

If only i can choose to live in the castle with my love one

(but i don't have such luck)

If only my love one can be a guy

(which is super impossible)

but i know,

no matter what,

she promised she will hold my hand tight till the day we part.

i'm happy with that.

Why love has to be so complicated??

or did I make it complicated?

2010-01-15T15:42:00.001+08:00

i never know that i'll be affected so badly.

2010-01-09T19:28:00.002+08:00

finally got my weekend off

early afternoon when over to grand place

so happy to see them once again.

grandma bought 10 popiah for us

but didnt manage to finish it

so left 4 for my ah kim for later in the night

when over TheSail with my sis n husband to study

forget to bring jacket

shivering in there

hardly able to concentrate

keep fidgetting about

try listening to music but it make me harder to concentrate

so i drop that idea.

so i found out that if i study for abit then i surf net, i find it easier to concentrate.

so here i'm blogging and going back to study shortly.

2010-01-09T00:45:00.002+08:00

真實

你說的話
在我心中生了根
愛得很深
所以心會疼
記憶在我的心中翻滾
是不是每一個人
都像我一樣笨

只怕再問
對彼此都太殘忍
我能感覺
另外一個人
我等等笑容換成淚痕
愛在崩潰的時候
比較真

太多疑問
知道答案又如何
原來容忍不需要天份
只要愛錯一個人
心痛比快樂更真實
愛為何這樣的諷刺
我忘了這是第幾次
一見你就無法堅持
孤獨比擁抱更真實
愛讓人失去了理智
會不會是我太自私
拒絕更寂寞的日子

放不開
也看不見未來
難道這種不完美
才是愛情真實的樣子
太多疑問
知道答案又如何
原來容忍不需要天份
只要愛錯一個人
心痛比快樂更真實
愛為何這樣的諷刺
我忘了這是第幾次
一見你就無法堅持

孤獨比擁抱更真實
愛讓人失去了理智
會不會是我太自私
拒絕更寂寞的日子

孤獨比擁抱更真實
愛讓人失去了理智
會不會是我太自私
拒絕更寂寞的日子

放不開
也看不見未來
難道這種不完美
才是愛情真實的樣子

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English Translate

The things you’ve said,
had plant it’s roots in my heart.
(I) loved you so deep,
that’s why (my) would hurt.
The memories are rolling in my heart.
Is it right that everyone
is as stupid as me.

(I’m) scared to ask again.
It’s too harsh on the both of us.
I can feel
another person.
I’m waiting for the smiles to become tears.
When love is in the mist of collapsing,
it’s more real.

(There are) too much questions.
(I) know what’s the answer going to be.
Actually tolerating doesn’t need talent.
Just need to love the wrong person.
Heartache is more real then happiness.
Why does love (have) this kind satire.
I’ve forgotten how many times
I’ve been unable to keep it together when I see you.
Loneliness is more real then an embrace.
Love makes people lose (their) rationality.
Am I being too selfish for
rejecting more lonelier days.

(I) cannot let go
nor see (my) future.
Could it be that this imperfectness
is what love really is.
(There are) too much questions.
(I) know what’s the answer going to be.
Actually tolerating doesn’t need talent.
Just need to love the wrong person.
Heartache is more real then happiness.
Why does love (have) this kind satire.
I’ve forgotten how many times
I’ve been unable to keep it together when I see you.

Loneliness is more real then an embrace.
Love makes people lose (their) rationality.
Am I being too selfish for
rejecting more lonelier days.

Loneliness is more real then an embrace.
Love makes people lose (their) rationality.
Am I being too selfish for
rejecting more lonelier days.

(I) cannot let go
nor see (my) future.
Could it be that this imperfectness
is what love really is.

2010-01-09T00:31:00.002+08:00

if you realise,

i did not eat much recently.

no appetite

trying to shed my tummy off

trying not to feel flabby.

you might not notice but

it just hit a big impact on me

causing everything to be as blant as water can be.

you might not wanna know

words.

picture says it all,

but words hit it off.

it can be as harsh as what a picture is showing

it is noticable that i try to escape every now and then,

this way, i wont be in a misery

this way, i have my own fairyland

this way, i can be happier

this way, i can remain at where i want the time to stop.

things been repeating for month

if it were to happen again,

i dun mind repeating because i know which are the days that is happy, i will try to savour it.

the days that are bad, i'll try to mend it and make it better else skip it.

i hate spinning in the same spot forever

but i'm indecisive

bear with it.

2010-01-09T00:20:00.003+08:00

i guess i have grown up.
no more fling for me(quit)
thou i keep wanting to find excitment,
but fling is not my type now
despite i used to fling alot in the past.

it have never even occure in my mine before since 2009 starts.
is a good thing i would say.

people say,
if you found the right person in life, or if u love that person alot,
you are willing to change anything for her :)
i did!

i very much admit the days when i was flinging,
was really happening
happening does not means i sell my soul
but the fear of being caught,
the sneakiness,
the chance to meet up,
really got me busy and fun.

but i don't miss any of it now.

i'm very happy with you now thou,
but i guess my dad flip through my bag and found some pic with love,
well nvm.. haha but sometimes i really got annoyed and feel like just bring a BF home so that he wont keep ranting..~

i wont hide that things been going round my mind frequently,
around and around
making me tired of everything i guess.
but this feeling suck big time!

2010-01-07T20:49:00.005+08:00

sometimes i just don't understand friends

both working in the same factory

both got the same pay day

today is 7th, and you have not receive the pay, so is she

why do you have to keep asking her when are you getting the pay?

why must to transfer the money to you and when you get the pay, you transfer back?

why cant you just bloody hell wait??

she is not the one giving out the pay nor she is the boss for the factory

you got no money, is not her responsiblilities to transfer her own saving to you.

you are in need of money, THAT IS YOUR FREAK PROBLEM!!

she dont owe you.

you did not save it for rainy days, THAT IS YOUR FREAK PROBLEM TOO!!

[[pissed like mad]]

keep disturbing and pester her for money FOR WHAT SHIT!!

can't you just wait?

bloody hell!

she is not going to eat up your pay or what so.

cant just keep your foul mouth shut

just keep calling and make noise.

F**Ker!!!

if she is not the one don't let me contact you

i'll just msg you and blast you off!

2010-01-07T20:31:00.002+08:00

i'll do anything to get to anywhere

studying for UT2 now

so boring..

planned to study since tues but i take it for granted that i'll finish study real fast.

another UT2 on monday

gotta start studying on Fri (maybe)

or sat since i'm not working for this weekend =)

nothing much today

except to drop by kovan with love to renew her family contract for starhub

and she got herself a phone too

nice exploring :)

2010-01-07T01:28:00.001+08:00

i mean it just like how this word look so real in it.

2010-01-07T01:09:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 2010 PEOPLE!!!

got this super late post as i got no time to update it.....

resolution for 2010:
- flat my tummy
- cut down on crackers
- tolerate my itchy mouth which keep looking for things to chew at night
- be more lovely
- be more patiance
- GET A LIFE!!
- stay lovely
- cont getting love from my sisters(mic & pts)
- make more time for thing i wanna do
- keep exploring places i wanna go to
- **save money for braces!!!
- be more sociable
- pass al my UTs
- go to club at least ONCE!!!
- Make up my mind and be more decisive!!!

above are some of my wishes for this year
be it coming through or not, the ending lies in me
to depend on whether i wanna make it HAPPEN or NOT.

2009-12-30T00:10:00.002+08:00

Dinner on dad

dad treat dinner
grandma came Singapore so dad treat us yummy dinner

Before that went out with sc to shop around at bugis and far east
bought tank top and denim jacket
nice nice!!

end result!

2009-12-29T23:49:00.003+08:00

when to wild wild wet with love as it has always been her wish.

company her for "slide up" since she pester me for so long!! haha

enjoyed.

2009-12-29T22:43:00.004+08:00

Happy Marriage!!!

Finally this day has arrive and is a brand new beging for them
happy for my sis and bf as well!

cant believe this day come so fast and with a blink of eyes, the ceremony is over
Mr and Mrs Tan now.

i like my sis wedding,
fresh flower as main theme
so nice and simple

i was busy with photograph
so didnt really had much of the food there
and it was really busy being a photographer
but still, i enjoyed!!

picture turn out, not too bad as commented by her bf =)) relieve!

2009-12-28T03:16:00.002+08:00

feeling been weird
hardly pictures taken even if we are out somewhere
nowadays
NO pics at all!!!!

*what is wrong with us?

**are we enjoying this rs or we are just wasting and dragging?

this feeling really sucks!
it is so empty
you promise no more QL, no more HW, but were you using it on me just now?
"leave me alone?"

2009-12-28T03:11:00.004+08:00

no idea why
but suddenly i felt that i'm lost in this world
friends seems to lost me

i seems to lost them, actually
slient in everything

where have you guys go?
where is my party people
or do i even have one?

people at work seems more happening than me who is still studying and having groups of people but when i wanna chill and party
i find no one.
NOONE!!
isn't that pathetic????

guess my friend just disappear

come back people, i need you guys ='(
i need party people
i need life people.

=(

2009-12-28T03:00:00.002+08:00

was just looking through some of my friend's pictures
their life is so happening

friends around her helping her to celebrate her birthday
friend gather to celebrate christmas

super happening at birthday and occassion.

a thought suddenly pop in my mind
it seems that i never had a splendid or glamourous party
or celebration from friend
so happening that it leave a good memory of the year
for this 22 years i live
nothing such happen to me before

doubt after it will.
now i have my friends around me
what do we do during celebrations?
gather, go to a resturant and that's it!
settled for the birthday
nothing special or interesting like my friend did

that is the type of celebration i wished for
the kind of friends i hope i can have
the type of clique that will do crazy and daring stuff
and they are very open and creative.

so far,
nah
non of this happend to me.

if it ever did, it is a dream and wish come true for me=)

2009-12-26T02:35:00.002+08:00

Pictures taken by me

Just another few more hours before dawn break
i'm still awake, getting readying for the big day later.

gonna be busy taking pictures
saying HI to people
company my sis run from place to place
simply because it is her big day.

another few more hours,
people will call her "Mrs Tan"
hmm.. this feeling is so weird

so undescriptable

i'm still abit worry about my photo skill in that DSLR camera
gosh
pictures ain't improving after few days of playing with it.

hope it will be better later =))

night people, night earth!

2009-12-25T01:48:00.003+08:00

Merry Xmas to all my angels!!

may you be blessed and love by your love ones at this special occassion
the weather is so nice for a cuddle in bed with your love ones!

cool wind that makes your toes turn cold
and wanna tug in bed just beside your love ones to feel the warmth from her body.
her arms wrapping around you tightly that you know you won't have nightmare.

find love in the morning
and meet sis at 3 @bishan to shop for her heels for her ROM
got it and head to CWP to continue look for mom's accessories
meet dad 7 plus at vista to change len's degree
head to 888 to get our dinner (KFC)
and head home for celebration!!

dad was so clumsy
bro keep insisting to open up my pear volka
so dad decided to open it

bought sprite to mix
but this clumsy dad pour half volka in the cup and mix with half sprite
gosh*
the taste was *wooh*
haha
i have to pour away some and repour the sprite to make the taste lighter
and my face turn red after 30 mins or so..

What can be worst than a quarrel on Christmas day??

2009-12-20T09:39:00.003+08:00

this is my handsome daddy!!!
i love him max!!
he is so handsome in shades and cap.

love you daddy!!!
MUACK!!

(man at work is always so handsome, Hee Hee :))

2009-12-20T09:29:00.002+08:00

argh!!! been working for 5 continuously (including today)
TIRED!!! guess tml gonna be the worst. work full shift!!!!

but luckily customers have been nice
and there is even one of the customer feedback on me, is a good one!!
haha was happy thou
inspire me to contious to serve them well.

suppose to go club with sister ytd at st James,
but i cancel it off.
head home, sleep.

life is so boring at work,
but for the sake of income,
i will contious to work hard
but no matter how much we sell,
part timers wont get commission.
only full timer will
and their commission is so pathetic.

if you sell 700++ and above, you only get 30 bucks -.-

2009-12-15T02:01:00.002+08:00

Narciso Rodriguez

a new perfume launched 2009

the fragrant is so nice that i got addicted!!

gonna get it for christmas present!!

BUT

hubby forbid me to do so as i have Hugo perfume have not use, CK (BE) have not finish, Gucci me still in use.... and so on :( *pout*

2009-12-15T01:49:00.003+08:00

Shopping time!

Out with hub to shop for christmas present
i only manage to find present for my sec sch clique
hope they like it =))

roam around PS but, Diaso was so PACK!!
argh, was squeezing my way through.

cute, funny face

end the day with no quarrels :))

super super happy.

Hubby, ps i love you

2009-12-15T01:37:00.002+08:00

last day of school

HOLIDAYS!!!

happy holiday my lovely classmates and friends
i would say i'm rather quiet in this sem's class
anti-social?
haha guess so.
but they are a bunch of nice and sometimes funny people
(funny as in cracking of jokes)

The beloved classmates, faizal, who always make the class laugh pratically everyday (pictures show it all)

pur class Java expert, Wayne, and the guy who always go around the class to irritate people. And he is happy about it!

3 camera were prepared, so there will be 3 different pics.

Take 1Take 2

Take 3

2009-12-13T11:22:00.003+08:00

dad ask me to throw away this winnie the pooh

this pooh has been with me for years since 2004

when i was still in 1st year of high nitec.

on the way to school, i saw this pooh bear on sales at CWP, it was cheap

$19.90 or $29.90

i am so into it that i bought it the next days and have to pratically drag the bear home as it was heavy and big!

when i sit down, it was almost same height as me, just half a head shorter.

i bought it coz i think that i can sit and lay back on pooh while i'm feeling upset or while i am reading story books.

he is my best company that time.

but with peanut around now,

he keep bullying my company.

bite his clothes, torn

chew off his ears

it become pea's wrestling buddy

is stain with his fur

that is why daddy say throw it away.

i am still considering.

still thinjking,

i can wash pooh up and he will be clean again!!

but how? how am i going to cleaning him up when he is so big and his cushion is so thick?

how will i be able to dry him withoutleaving the mist in it too long?

i don't want my company to leave me.

2009-12-13T10:47:00.002+08:00

Just came back from jogging,
went to my favourite private place to jog
thought that place is known by many,
but still, i like to call it my private place.

it is a place where only those people close to me wil know about it.

body is weaker than before
panting like nobody business
done 300 skipping still feel not enough
but my body can no longer to further
*argh* sobber*
hope it will get better.

days hasn't been better in R/S
things been going wrong.
love not in town this afternoon,
gonna have dinner with my colleage then.

17 days to Christmas
-present not yet done!!

18 days to Sis's big day!!
-plannaing not yet ready!

2009-12-10T14:17:00.003+08:00

I'm back
After 2 days of missing from class
with friend worrying about me
what happened to me
M.I.A
i'm alright people
just alittle down.

After 1 night and 1 morning of sobber
(purely because you don't want me)
i see light :)
tears stop the moment you speak from your heart

no more abandon
no more "i don't want you"
no more " i no longer love you"
pure sweetness

very often
people only realise there is love when something horrible and terrible happened.
they will then realise how much they love each other.

stayed over night after that and felt really happy to see you when i wake up the next morning
seeing you beside me, hugging me tight while still deeply asleep
is so bless :)
i know you have been seeing me sleep late in the night
worry i'll have nightmares

it is so nice to feel you body temperature next to mine
your breathe on my skin.

if it have to change, it will change.

2009-12-07T14:04:00.002+08:00

it is always so nice to have my angels with me
helping me, guiding me, making me see the way.
telling me they will always be there for me
lighting the way in front of me, for me to see.

telling me what is right or wrong
i know you will, you will
making me see the situation.

i have been taking alot of steps,
but non of the steps is my first steps.

i once told you,
my prince charming will never come,
but you insist saying he will.
there will be a person out there,
love you more and care for you more.
i hate to believe you.

you said one day he will appear and treat you really well..
i want to live in fairytale,
but i ain't living in it
not meant to be in it,
not worth living in it.

2009-12-07T11:43:00.000+08:00

五月天 - 溫柔

2009-12-07T10:17:00.001+08:00

"I Stay In Love"
Mariah carey

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ZKdgFVqAkA

Oh baby
Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside 'cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby
I try and try so hard
To keep our love alive

If you don't know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's a mistake if we just erase it
From our hearts and minds and I know

[Chorus:]
We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
'cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
But baby, baby
I stay in love with you

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gonna act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all now

Hey, what I wanna do is
Ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone
Now go I know

[Chorus x2]

I stay in love
Love
Oh, I stay in love.

2009-12-07T10:07:00.008+08:00

I Want To Know What Love Is Lyrics

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is.....
I want you to show me......
I wanna feel what love is.....
I know you can show me......

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me....
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me....

In my life! there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life!.!.!.!.

I wanna know what love is.....
I want you to show me......
I wanna feel what love is......
I know you can show me......

I wanna know what love is....
I want you to show me....
And I wanna feel, I want to.... feel what love is....
And I know, I know you can show me....

show me

I wanna know what love is, lets talk about love
I want you to show me, I wanna feel it too
I wanna feel what love is, I want to feel it too
And I know and I know, I know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah
I wanna know what love is...

2009-12-05T01:53:00.003+08:00

after chalet,
head home, bathed and pack work clothes and head out to meet sisters.
head town as PTS wan to buy birthday gift.

luckily sister brought along my camera
therefore we can have memorable's pictures taken

sister wore heels today and pain to the core.
haha
flats is better for walking and shopping.
he head from one place to another without stopping
till PTS deceded to get the adidas jacket for his friend's 21st birthday.

had lots of "talking" done in public thou..
haha
nice one.

love the LV damn huge suit case
and PTS pic.
photographer : ME!!!
of coz nice la
hahahaha
did some editing, wow damn nice!!

town was packed with peoples with load of paper bags in their hand
sales is everywhere
even LV or some high class shop have long queue!!

oh ya... suppose to work today
thanx to my sisters physco skill, i stayed.

rocher
Chirstmas in the ball!

LV damn nice deco...

PTS and me!

Christmas bear

LV suit case.

stars with glow which make us go "WOW" after pic is taken!

sister and me in bird cage.

lovely rooftop!

cliques!

staring up.

Merry Merry..

Had an enjoyable day with cliqs!

2009-12-02T11:06:00.002+08:00

is he sweet?

he ain't insane

but just doing some daring things his friend dare him to do

it wasn't me whom see it personally

is cleff who send me the pic.

find it interesting so post it.

2009-12-02T00:54:00.002+08:00

why do you fear so much that i'm going to leave you just because of your previous 2 ex left you because they turn straight?

because of that, the phobia, you worry since they day we been together?

you live in fear my dear.
why bring pressure to yourself to a point where you feel your chest tight, unbreathable?
silly.

will you stop worrying?

2009-12-01T14:37:00.002+08:00

i realise everywhere i go
any part of the world i'm at,
i misses my grandpa badly.

whenever i think of him,
tears rim up my eyes
realising how i want him back badly

though we hardly talk, but i know i love him
he is a nice grandpa,
always dote on us,
early morning go to market to get us breakfast.

i regret not talking to him this year new year.
he called to say happy new year,
but i told my dad i don't feel like talk on the phone.

this is it,
no other chance to hear his voice
to say "Happy New Year Grandpa" anymore.

i'll cherish my remaining grands
i love you grands
and thinking of you everyday.

2009-12-01T14:29:00.003+08:00

Happy 1st♥

Had a great time

dine in at Aston

lovely=)

i love the way your hand wrap around my waist

i love the way you pull me close to you

i love the way you look into my eyes and smile

i love the way we hug tight and close

i love the way when our lips touches =)

2009-11-30T00:41:00.009+08:00

BACK!!

it is really a nice place for relaxation in Sibu Kelong
nice scenary, nice wind, nice weather
Everything is so nice that
Wish that i can stay there for another week!

been fishinf for that 3 days

but i aint getting tired of it
it feels good everytime there is fish biting on the bait.

but of coz, if the fish is too small, we will put it back into the sea.

i just miss the place and memory so so much.

if there is chance, i don't mind going back again.

but this time, can we take speed boat instead? coz it'll be more fun!!!

i love granny, she is really very nice, prepare everything for us.

she is like 7-11, coz she have got everything.

be it medi, or raincoat. but the only thing she dun have is pad =X

haha

sibu Kelong

trying to catch fish by scoping!

crab J caught! superb!

another island, another port.

ferry

Mini durain

Unglam picture, trying to catch crab this time

platform

only thing you see from beneath

nice weather companied with cola

J's dad caught a huge fish!

GRANNY!!!! best!!

big fish

*gasps*

open toilet bowl. wasted drop into the sea for the fishes. *yucks*

2009-11-25T23:37:00.003+08:00

Peepz

i'll be leaving on Fri to relax during my holiday
back on Sunday

i'll miss you guys =))

2009-11-25T23:31:00.003+08:00

PP Presentation is tomorrow
*wish me luck!*

3 advisor staring at me
grrr*
how am i suppose to present without my voice shaking!!!??

things to prepare:
- ~~Formal dress~~
- ~~Shoes~~
- ~~PP Poster~~
- ~~Time to wake up~~
- Notes
- Confident

I got everything prepared, accept for the 2.
but luckily tml PTS is with me.. same timing and same class =))

2009-11-25T23:25:00.003+08:00

not feeling well~~ X(

rush to school this morning but still late.

after 2nd break, don't feel well

body starts to ache

temperature rising inside me

told PTS and we got me Panas and bottle of warm water straight when he heard able it

*sweet*

just nice that my hand is freezing!!!

thinking of partial,but i already get downgrade
so don't wish to affec my grade any further

sister didnt come school today,

but PTS told her about me not feeling well,

thankz sis for worrying about me =))

deeply touch to have you guys around me

caring for me and each other =))

love♥

2009-11-24T10:57:00.001+08:00

3 more days~!!! wee

off to malaysia for fishing trip with J and family

soooooo excited

haha

is always my dream to go overseas and FISH!!! haha

didn't know i can be so crazy over that thou.. haha but i know nothing much about fishing

so everything is prepare by them and all i did is to throw out the weight and fish!!!

guess will miss peanut

awwwwwww

hahaha....

2009-11-17T09:39:00.003+08:00

shane snap her hair and turn into "ah toot"
haha
drvie to school on monday and saw her hair..
people start pinching her and call her cute instead.. haha

today bus to sch tgt and she style her hair.... not bad though... still cute too =D
love to go to school with shaneee =DD
talk crap in bus
even the simplest word "chicken wing" also sound funny =))) haha
coz she pronouns it and sound like aunty.. haha

2009-11-16T14:43:00.002+08:00

in front of me, i see a long road

i'll be so busy this whole week and the next whole week

-PP poster to do (and is happening so fast!)

-PP presentation on 26 Nov

-lugage to pack for 27 to 29

-present to prepare =D

and the list go on and on....

2009-11-11T11:55:00.002+08:00

i seriously hate to admit that we cant communicate
how can this be?
you are treating me colder each day while i'm looking forward to talk to you

you are turning you back at me
and the saddness thing happened is you just look at me and turn away
that is just so sad to recall

you care nothing about me
pure zero

i'll hold back =)

i'll stop falling

2009-11-11T11:10:00.002+08:00

bite pts =D

he said can see my bunny teeth -.-

so pai sei la!!!

i guess i only bite the skin haha

he ask me next time bite harder =))

2009-11-11T10:20:00.001+08:00

skin ain't feeling better
pls pls pls
let me recover before i go away

told mommy,
she ask me to use tea tree oil and apply lotion,
thanks mommy.

told daddy,
he told me methods to heal it,
wash with cool water and wash with mild soap
thanks daddy

was feeling better already
but still
i'm scare
no scar please =((

i didnt know it would be so deep

wanna go to a farawayplace

and hoping you are the one who appear to find me

2009-11-10T09:55:00.002+08:00

this is my new friend*winks*

Name: Nini

Age: 1 mth old

Favourite action: shake

Favourite food: Pear (coz it look like paer shape!)

2009-11-10T09:44:00.000+08:00

baby,

come closer

2009-11-10T01:21:00.003+08:00

i love sunflower

they always have this cheerful look that manage to cheer up my mood somehow =D

i rather receive sunflower than rose, acutally =)

i'm always looking forward to the day starts,

when you sitting beside me.

thou all you did was just sit beside me

you did your part just like how the sunflower did

brighten my day.

but in a way that you didnt't know =)

2009-11-06T11:01:00.003+08:00

This it it - They don't care about us

2009-11-06T10:32:00.001+08:00

What is friend for?
i start to don't understand it when it come from you
you keep giving my empty promises
you keep breaking promises.

to friend,
promises can be broken?

i thought you've changed for once
but i'm wrong
you are still the same.

i thought for once maybe we can smile and laugh like how we used to be
but i'm seriously wrong.

i'm leaving this path
this way

2009-11-05T01:00:00.004+08:00

this is a nice song too.
Shane hum it when she drive me to sch =))

Owl City - Fireflies lyrics

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

'Cause they'd fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A fox trot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay
Awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams




Owl City - Fireflies lyrics  LyricsMode.com

2009-11-05T00:57:00.001+08:00

Wanted to post video, but i could not find the embed code, disabled
thou this is old song, but i still think is niceeeee!!!

"Sexy Love"
Ne-yo

My sexy love... (so sexy...)

[Verse 1]
She makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up
Just one touch
And I errupt like a volcano and cover her with my nut
Babygirl you make me say (Oh oh oh)
And I just can't think (of anything else I'd rather do)
Than to hear you sing (sing my name the way you do)
When we do our thing (when we do the things we do)
Babygirl you make me say (Oh oh oh)

[Chorus]
Sexy love girl the things you do
(Oh baby baby) Keep me sprung, keep running back to you
Oh I love making love to you
Babygirl you know you're my (sexy love...)

[Verse 2]
I'm so addicted to her she's the sweetest drug
Just enough
Still too much say that I'm simp and I'm sprung all of the above
I can't help she makes me say (Oh oh oh)
And I just can't think (of anything else I'd rather do)
Than to hear you sing (sing my name the way you do)
When we do our thing (when we do the things we do)
Oh, babygirl you make me say (Oh oh oh)

[Chorus]
Sexy love girl the things you do
(Oh baby baby) Keep me sprung, keep running back to you
Oh I love making love to you
Say babygirl you know you're my (sexy love...)

[Verse 3]
Oh baby what we do it makes the sun come up
Keep on lovin' 'til it goes back down
And I don't know what I'd do if I would lose your touch
That's why I'm always keepin' you around... my sexy love

[Chorus:]
Sexy love girl the things you do (things you do baby)
(Oh baby baby) Keep me sprung, keep running back to you (keep me runnin' back to you)
Oh I love (I love) making love to you
Say babygirl you know you're my (sexy love...)

[Chorus:]
Sexy love girl the things you do (sexy love)
Keep me sprung, keep running back to you (runnin' back to you)
Oh I love making love to you
Say babygirl you know you're my (sexy love...)

She makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up
Just one touch...

2009-11-04T10:41:00.002+08:00

It was shown in research that a good day starts with a good breakfast

Good Morning mother earth!

2009-11-04T10:33:00.001+08:00

Very often we are busy and neglect what is surrounding us

you were the most loyal living thing at home.

To us, there is way too many things to care about and too many thing in our mind

we have plenty of friends and place to go to

and we can go as and when we like

But for you little

we are you world,

your everything

things that you worry about everyday is us

when are we giving you your favourite munch?

when are we coming home to bring you down for a walk?

what time are we coming home?

do you get to play much with us?

i love you little♥.

i'll try to be home often and early to keep u company, bring you down to explore the world

and of coz go to our favourite spot and spend our even thing like old time.

love you
♥

2009-11-03T14:44:00.004+08:00

i'm so gonna get rid of my blood freaking FATS

really hate it wheneven i sit down and there

i feel the fats

it is super super irritating

freaking making me pissed!!!

i'm gonna do workout till i die.

i'm so willing to do so

2009-11-03T14:27:00.002+08:00

The unbearable weight,
it crushes me,
holds me down under it.

I try to stand, to rise,
only to fall to my knees once more.
I feel as if someone swept
my feet out from under me.
And there's no one to help me,
no hand reaching,
no arms holding me up.

Feeling so alone,
even among a crowd of friends.
It's not right, I shouldn't feel
this way, this trapped.
It's almost as if I were stuck,
sealed in a coffin, the dirt holding me in.

I'm unseen, unheard.
Trying to be the strong one,
when all I want to do is break down.
To cry and sob and scream,
to let everything out.

For once, I want to be the weak one,
not the crutch everyone leans on.
I want to be the one protected,
not the protector, the bearer of burdens.
When is it my turn to be free,
to be weak, to cry, to feel?

2009-11-02T11:30:00.002+08:00

human can be so petty

just because of small thing

and delete the person profile.

i did that before

at friendster

haha

i tot she wont know

and wont bother to add me back

but the moment i delete her

the next day

a friend request appear again

i accept it again

till now, we still "keep-in-touch" through facebook

knowingg how she is doing, is really interesting

and we are really very much like Hi-Bye cyber friend.

2009-10-30T14:27:00.002+08:00

Defination of low class:
- unable to face up the truth
- runaway from comment
- cant accept human as friend
- delete people from friend list and MAYBE post something bad about the person that is why it has been deleted.
- trying to hide away from something
- comment behind people's back
- say things using mean words to describe others
- reading people's personal diary
- make themselve angel infront of other people

i'm human with brain and not brainless
i'm human with logic and fight back if i'm right
i'm human who trying to make some sound here so that you can be hear

**meant to message you to give you feed back on how to lighten the situation,
trying to talk words so that it can go back to how it use to be, and she have someone still beside her while i cant be.
But you shoo me off.

i would be glad to give you the picture =D

as well as the direction.

2009-10-30T09:25:00.001+08:00

Happy 11 ♥
it cant be any happier with you by my side all the time.

2009-10-30T00:39:00.002+08:00

don't be stupid no more
it all aint worth it.
just move on with you life.
there is more wonderful thing out there awaiting for you to discover
why wanna remain stuck there like there is no tomorrow?

Lido is just a past
"it" wont be back
No!
"it" has moved on
so you too, have to go on.
"it" care hack shit of you
make you suffer
like nobody business

make a fool of you
test you
make you feel SHIT!
and have to gut to get angry with you
i don't see the Rights in there.
"it" has no right at all!
{getting some justice here}

move on , girl. you deserve better!

2009-10-28T14:03:00.002+08:00

The Soup Spoon from sis!

last thurs when to Bugis with sis around evening time to shop for her sunday wedding dinner
dinner was on sis! yum

i didnt know it taste so nice!
heard from friend that it is not that nice
but she insist on having, so i just tag along.

after the food was being served, the smell of the soup really melts in my heart.
two thumb up!
especially the abalone mushroom soup
mine was clam chowder soup. nice too

it comes in a set. so we had salad and sardine bread too.
Full!

2009-10-27T09:49:00.002+08:00

was not in school today
lethargic
woke up 8.33
drag here and there abit, the clock point 8.45
was planning to partial
but even if now i rush down,
i'll be late.
late(-0.5) + partial = D/E

is there a point then?

was hoping to have a perfect attendent this semester

but, that don't seem like the case now

2009-10-23T09:25:00.002+08:00

Today while i was riding to school,
something caught the coner of my eyes,
something dark grey with white stripes.

i turn and to my horror,
i saw a cat in hunch back position laying on the grass
a kind passerby put a tissue to cover the cat face
saying " rest in peace"

have no idea how the cat end up in this states
i saw abit of flesh near the face
it was awful to continues looking at lt.

people says cat have 9 life
and this is the fate of that cat today.

rest well, little.