if i have a chance
i wanna spread my wing and fly ت

tu me manques{imissyou}

candy
stupidly lost.


love to go overseas
stay by the beach
listen to loud music
love grands
love friends
love ♥
tanning like mad



Wish for...

Ape bag

Sports bagpack( addidas, nike, onewell)

Chanel(Chance Eau Tendre)

Ipod touch

Pull over / jacket

juz a random post:

i start to not understand myself
i dunno wad i really wan
but i sure i know i wan to study, earn bucks, my love.


the rest i'm blurred..confuse..

IQP chalet pic
more to be upload.
enjoy.

[[memories]]

IQP CHALET

finally that day came but went fast.
sad
met up wif sasa n head to aloha.
she was late..but i forgave her.
she got herself a new hair cut,
i like it.
told her she should haf cut it earlier
suits her pretty well thou.

reached at 6+
met kor kor
(he waited at coasta instead.haha)
n he lead us to bunglow 10
*my fav number*

first day only:
'mama yu
'jin pin
'shuyu
'cihui
'subrina
'sasa
'firauza
'fel+bf
'suharti+her bf
'hana+her bf
'taufiq
'zhe song
'jia wen

this few
i bbq till 9+ i head for shower to meet my dolph for a drink at fisherman
(which had change the name to whitesand instead, but i still prefer fisherman)
reach fisherman at 11..
had fried rice n jar of tiger.
didne had enough drink n they are closing business already.
clock shows 2 only.
hang out at the park.
dolph got tired n slept on my lap instead.
i was awake in the dark la..
enjoying the breeze and sound of the sea waves.
was cold la.

till 7am in the morning
we saw glimps of the sunrise ray
orangy
but nice.
head to mac for big breakfast
been ages since i had mac breakfast in the morning.
dolph head back home while i head back chalet.

bathed while my friend still aslp.
man i didnt even sleep the whole night n was pretty awake after the bath.
shuyu woke up first, saw me n first thing she said to me was :" i wanna go swimming lei."
dot..haha..ok..i said let's go lo..u go wash up first.
i waited at my kor kor's room..
with taufiq n zhesong..
fighting half way n i'm outta their room.
lol

had a walk at the parsi ris beach
pretty dirty thou
filled with seaweeds, dead fish, and plenty lot of melting jelly fish.
*YUKES*
saw i still-breathing-jelly fish
ask taufiq scope it up using a wood n bring it back to the sea.
half way scoping, he drop the jelly fish.
hosh.think the jelly fish died coz of the droping n not the heat from the sun.
hahaha

saw many sea creature n all dead.
saw i crab-like thingy but only left the shell.
haha
baby crab also only left with shells.
no flesh.
dried up.
alot of melting jelly fish
feel like poking their head to see is there any water coming out instead.
but we didnt did tt..haha
will be damn gross la..
*feel like vomiting*

after the walk, we had our swimming session n the yukes pool
[i dun like tt]
head back chalet.
rest before the start the water game.
number guessing
i knana twice la..
n taufiq thrice.
haha

had bbq.
follow by a belated birthday surprise for mama yu.
practically she spread the chocolate sauce on her mouth n aim all the boys
and her girl student la..i was one of them.

wad worst was.
the stupid girl shuyu kissed my mouth!! argh..
coz we where sitting around the table eating tt delicious cake, she said she will start the crazy kissing.. she tried once on me but i manage to move away.
but when she tried it the 2nd time, she wanted to plant on my cheek but i turn n ended up at the side of my mouth.yuke.
haha..

had police n theive game.
but cihui fall n blood gust out..so stop the game.
almost 9++
i head to bathroom, washed up, and head home.

end of chalet.

at rahs house bloggin
she's bathing.
god. smelly chicks.

random topic.
random act.


knowing wad i'm doing
actually.
i guess.
i assumed.

mood.
words i said might depend on my mood.
this thinking now and different the next.

well.
let you guess then.

realised you dun need me anymore,so do i
i guess.

somehow we belongs to different kind of world
tt's wad u said;
different grades.
talking to me like talking to the wall
waste of breathe
but nevertheless
if i no longer contact you,
i'll continue to improve my eng speaks
like yours.

i enjoyed all the time spent with you
you were caring n stuff
but..ya..
*speachless*
when u with someone,
treat her whole-heartedly
dun let ur mind wonder to others.
<3

all i want now,
is my love.
missed every sec;

this is a prepost of wad am i going to do today
*plan to jog in the morning but woke up at 10.
forget it.

*swimming later @ yishun complex

back home

not coming online for this few nights
gonna rest early thou
having heavy eyes bag
(dumb dumb say so)

i hate aging la..

dumb dumb having test right this moment.
and you view my blog in sch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
make sure u don't leave my blog @ in the com.
i'll skin you alive.
haha.

this is my 347 post..lol
oh my..
how much had i post.

i miss all my classmates
all the 29 ppl..

how much have our classmate left and quit sch?!!
i've lost count.

i miss mom
i miss xiao bai
i miss choo choo.
i miss dad

i miss silly dumb dumb
(choco)(keep bitting me)

i miss lil' dumbie pie
(pat)(p-t.gf)

i miss my love.

airport.
walked into a chocolate shop.
something caught my eyes.
and i went there straight.
i said:" look! isnt is cute?"
"but i dun like white choco"
(there was white, milk and dark)

we went to viewin mall
mins passes.
you said u need the wash rooms.
n went ahead
but you are back with 'me-to-you' dark choco.
*surprise.blush
you were sweet.
a peek on the cheek.
goes with a smile.
didnt expect you would buy it.


plenty of loves.

.all.good.things(come.to.an.end)video


"All Good Things (Come To An End)"---Nelly Furtado

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

Just my imagination---cranberries



There was a game we used to play
We would hit the town on Friday night
And stay in bed until Sunday
We used to be so free
We were living for the love we had and
Living not for reality

It was just my imagination x3

There was a time I used to pray
I have always kept my faith in love
It's the greatest thing from the man above
The game I used to play
I've always put my cards upon the table
Let it never be said that I'd be unstable

It was just my imagination x3

There is a game I like to play
I like to hit the town on Friday night
And stay in bed until Sunday
We'll always be this free
We will be living for the love we have
Living not for reality

It's not my imagination x3

Not my x18




.Justmyimagination.

beautiful touching notes from mom.

i read n 3 years of beautiful memories she lfet in me,
flows like an album being played thru cd.
i felt emo.

• *the time we talk in class
• *disturb teacher
• *took pic in class n keep complaining tt the pic dun look nice!!
• *abit of disagreement/arguement
• *things we bought to share
• *tibits you kept in ur locker so tt when hungry we can share n munch on them.

********

there she goes:

I'm neither good in expressing myself nor good in english.

However, i would really like to express my heartfelt gratitude to you guys.

You guys really make my ITE Journey a great journey. Although at many time i use harsh words on some of you, teasing you guys non-stop, but i'd never meant anything bad. Thanks for being by my side when i need you guys. I will never forget how you guys stay by my side when i am really down and out. I've not been a good friends all these while. I hardly expressed my love and care for you guys, but deep in my heart, you all are people that i never wish to lose. Although Today marks the last day of ITE journey, but i hope it isn't the end of our friendship. Do keep in touch and come out once in awhile if we are free.

All of you, Please take good care of yourself. Still the same old thing, Sleep Early, Drink More water, Don't Play too much in the rain, don't Drink too much, Don't smoke too much, and those who need to turn to god, please don't delay, Slight flu or slight fever also have to take care, don't say nothing serious then can don't care. Take 100% care of yourself k. hugs.

At here, i really want to say, THANK YOU, AND SORRY.

With loves, blessing and care.
Samantha Wong.


*****************

mom, i'll keep all this memories deep in my heart de
you were there for me when i needed you
you gave me hugs of comfort when i need them most
you were a great friend
(stop saying tt you are not)
you care for every single one of us
you took care of us
juz tt i'm not a good friend
really..
i didnt show you any attention
i regret.

i'm sorry.

updates**

##studying for 'nuts'##

**
dunno why but i juz think of you
kinda...miss u..
*shakes-head*
no-no
tt gotta be a crAves
to see ur msg appearing on my screen
you have juz been missed''
***

had my last day of lesson ytd
kinda emo..
sob
took some pic wif mates.
(pic to be up soon)

know they for 2 yrs
hardly go out with them thou
for is my fault that i didnt bond well with them
now grads le
i'm going to miss them
i miss the fun they brought to the class
i use to think
"bloody, when am i going to grads..? argh!!!"
now i did, i juz wish things remain
i was thinking why didnt i used to work hard?!!

all because i kept thinking
"aiya, nvm la..the time to final is still very long la!"

tt's man..
i'm stuck
cant enter poly lor
*shakes-head)

i wanted to mix with my classmate n had a real bond
but everytime once we step into the class
automatically,
we'll open our acc book n start scribbling
hardly got time to bond with them
the only time was after sch
but i had to rush off to meet 'rah' n fellows

had to stay put sometimes due to training
hadly had lunch with them thou
hangs out with 'rah' again

training:
i miss them loads
thou i tot they had torture for 3 years
with 2 coaches++
i still prefer the female coach:
;liling;
she is superb
our friend-like-coach
she can joke with us
we even celebrated her birthday at her house
with a surprise she nv tot of
coz she dun expect us to appear at her door steps
when we request to meet her under block

haha
had tons of fun,
bully her
chit-chat

argh..juz missed the past.





***
if i had a chance,
i would still like to head back to the past
or rather things had no change to it.
***






<3
you walked up to me
held my hand
and lead me your way
<3

at least i know your true colour at the end
you wasted my time, your time for tt night
you made a bad reputation for your label
keep your label low
*fcuk n shut.
there is no point coming clean since it's a bad label
it'll be bloody best if you disappear somehow. lol


was having a life turnover at this point of time
suck
didnt know wad was right then
lost
but i manage to stay focus in my studies w/o affecting my studies




***honey for notes:
i promise n swear not to bother anything around me
i promise to haf u only in my eyes after so much
i feel your love deeply "punch" in my heart
i juz wanna be the only one for you
i wont even glance at others nor heard them
coz i know i wanna be true to you now
i know i'm nv good
i SWEAR i'm going to cut myself somewhere or hurt myself if i ever hurt you.

SHOULD I STAY- DREAM FM



Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…

study study study
i'm getting more n more nuts lars

after sch study..
back home study
in class study
no-breaks

but i still get bad result
sadded

thank mom for the always-hugs in sch..i really need that..
pin pin hugs me too in class-warm.
kor kor sayang n taught me too
g-friend-loves

if only time can be slower n tun back the time by few months.
i'll love only the god.

no point saying "imissyou" now right
tt was like pasted so long ago
but i remembered
the precious sweet memories tt you left for me
the unwanting to leave your house

i miss em'

i miss drawing on ur wall
ahboy
your sing
your warm hugs
you bed
tt furry dog i used to hug
your voice
the melt of your eyes
tt stares into mine

mayb you haf long forgotten all this
you've got a lovely lil love
glad tt after long search
you found your love
the one you truely love

used to hang around at AP
seeing the flight
tears fall n u know wad i'm thinking
the mixture of milo, coffee n sugar in a straw
for which i still keeps.

i juz miss the past
but no way i'm going to repeat it again
but i didnt know til now tt i actually left a place for you in my heart.
a place tt is deep enough.

and now in the old pic
is only me alone
there's no longer a "you"
you are gone.

call me bitch
call me idiot
call me dumb
call me useless
call me liar
call me anything you can think of

but all i can say is sorry
and thank you

thanks for teaching me loads of things/stuff.
uttermost sorry

an abandon child
of which is useless
stupid, rather

nobody cares
not even a glance
what's the point of sharing
when you are not there

i need u,
i do,badly
but do u hear me,
i doubt so.

so where were u
when i need you?
i call for you
and u said you dun bothers

tears fall
uncontrollingly
you juz sit
and wait

why are u so cold to me
is ur heart lock?
where is the concern u use to show
i'm drowning in me

i try to use reasons to pretend tt u still cares
but wad's the point when it's obvious
tt you no longer belongs to me
i heart brokes
into pieces

i'm in a mess.of losting.

that's my Goal-shayne ward

You know where I come from
You know my story
You know why I'm standing here
Tonight
Please don't go
Don't be in a hurry
I'm here to make it clear
Make it right

Well I know I've acted foolish
But I promise you no more
I've finally found that something
Worth reaching for

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

Please don't go
You know that I need you
I can't breathe without you
Live without you
Be without you
Well I know I've acted foolish
But I promise you no more
No more

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

Well I won't stop believing
That we will be leaving together
So when I say I love you
I'll mean it forever and ever
Ever and ever

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
(Oh I'm ready)
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
(That's why I'm here babe)
Yes I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal
That's my goal


songs