if i have a chance
i wanna spread my wing and fly ت

tu me manques{imissyou}

candy
stupidly lost.


love to go overseas
stay by the beach
listen to loud music
love grands
love friends
love ♥
tanning like mad



Wish for...

Ape bag

Sports bagpack( addidas, nike, onewell)

Chanel(Chance Eau Tendre)

Ipod touch

Pull over / jacket

holy holy
my network still suck big time.
cant you juz work properly after so longgggggggggg??
holy shit.
nvm.phew.

anyway. today is honeys birthday!!

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY MY SWEET CREAMY LAZY smelly SWEET HONEY DEAR.

`wishes.

my birthday wishes:

`addidas belt
`havanas sandles
`winnie pooh cup
`winnie plush
`watch
`ripcurl dotted long sleeve
`ripcurl handbag


for her:

` nightmare mini poker
`top

still shopping around actually..
hah hah heh heh

`happy.

today is my off and so on thursday.
*wee*

counting: 3 more days to cream BIG day. haha
and 10 days more to my BIG day. haha
cant wait.

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friday my kor kor head down to PS with ahma to find me. kor kor pass me the present.
at first i tot he share with jin pin or ahma or the group of them. but i was wrong.
i misunderstand kor kor le..he keep saying the present is from him alone and i was like "haha don't bluff, you all shared right?" gosh.

ahma even said :" oh your birthday coming ar? haha i forget..lol"

and kor kor plead:" why you don't believe is i give de?"

haha sorry kor kor. i only found out when i head for my dinner break and read the card inside. it's really from him. opps =X


p.s: thx kor kor..you are the first person to wish me birthday and gave me a big present.
(pics will be up after 7 june. heh heh.

`stupid STUpid STUPID!!

*toot* the network. suck suck sucks.
the stupid connection isn't working properly.
cant login to this can login to that.
wth.
gotta refresh again n again.
i waited for a super long hours before i finally see my blogger HOMEPAGE ONLY.
waited for another few minutes before i see my dashboard.
and another few minutes before i really BLOG here.
*swipe sweat.*

ytd the network person head down to check everything
status: working properly. everything is OK.
then deh, what problem am i facing now??!!!

super pissed.

`off equals to none.

i hate work.
sleesh.
supposingly today is my off day, a day i would head out to play. but thank to company arrangement. we gotta head to phonix hotel for some customer service lesson. oh man. wad a snort. isn't this super irritating?!! there's no other ways no to attend this. warning letters will be issue.

simply great. pout.

life been dull and dead. wake up 8 in the morning, had breakfast, bath, change. head to work.
end work 10++, take train, head home, bath and sleep.

that is my super dull life now. darn. i hate it. SIMPLY NO LIFE!!! hatres.
but for the seek of ka-ching, what can i do? mayb hop to another job would be best right..haha.. rip of office? at least working hours is shorter and i can head for my shopping session and date friends!!

time is ticking away damn fast. gotta wash up and head for the stupid lesson now.
bye.

misses all.
miss hons.

` girlfriend

my gf rachel came down to my work place with jes.. haha

girl really surprise to see you.
jes became more cheerful outside..haha
meet up ok..

`Kite!

been years (mayb 10yrs of age) since i last flew i KITE!! gosh.. the feeling is suerb super great.

(sun) head to East Coast Park with cream. she ride (cycle) me there. but i cycle her when we about to reach, she's stronger la!!!!!!!!!




there is a fun fair thingy goning on at east coast though. saw Nohohon plush toys, gave it a 5 time tried but cant get it. sob. the clipper suck, juz dun wanna grad that plush tight. hrump.

stop at the entrance of the park to watch water skiing. and so happen we saw a kid, pretty younger and small size, was skiing. he/she look pro lah!!! can "tahan" that 3 round beside the strong pressure that the string pull. cool.

i duno how long can i survive this war. i dream of my past juz now in the early morning. i dreamt of my bball days, i dream of the fun we used to have, i dreamt of our teammates, i dreamt of our hang out for dinner S11, i dreamt of our tornament matches, i dreamt of you.

i dun like but i hate to say a silent goodbye to the past. can i really keep them in my memories or deep in my heart? i myself is confuse. my mind felt like a trash i dun wanna clear it up. your words are like bullet that shot me many times and now i'm numb and gonna die. what is really happening? should i confess to myself that a friend our mine is dead in my heart? i dont dare to face the fact. i wanna hide it deep behind me. that's the only things a can do.

wish me.♥

i love and miss all the time i went out with cream. now that she's at work, she only get offdays on sunday. super bored. but she end work at 4 so she st
ill can company me during my off days.












iHearther.

i felt tt all my friend is gone from me. no one contact me. except my mom. i felt that many of my friend is gone. Gone as in found their own group of friends, they no longer needa contact us etc. or rather meet up once a year, a few hours is enough. they won't wanna spent much time with us. or rather with me. i'm now so lonely. the only person i aways head out with is my cream. no more other girlfriends. sick. i wan my sec life back, i wan my gang back where we would always head out. to shopping, have loud laughter, singing, dance step and loads of happening.

now i'm at my working life, super dead. no happening except with my work friend at work place. it's impossible to ask me to head to clubbing after work! my parent would not trust me after that!! i wanna get back to study life.



juz hope we can shop forever.












KFCs










together as a pair.





















i ride =DD

mom (SM) and an qi head over to my work place and gave me a total shock! i mean i was at the back of the shop and suddenly i saw her standing there..haha i was overjoyed i mean i nv expect to see her lah!! thou i did thought of it early in the day. how i wish she will company me for lunch but i remembered that she's heading out with anqi so i didnt think too much!

she's a darling mom. super on, i told her to get things that cough up to 50bucket and join a life time member that is entitled to 10% off and 20% on your b'day itself! And this sweet mom says ok for your seek, and she really cough items up to 50.80bucket! thank pretty pretty lot mom. i get my commission i shall buy something for you =)).

didnt know she bought a winnie bear(white) for me *-* (sweet) and a cola sweet and i urge her to buy *_* heh heh. she ask my colleage to pass to me coz i was busy-ing. *touch* i tot she went off with anqi and head home early. But she didnt, she met up with fazanah and head back to PS again!! To look for me la..deh..! i head to ladies and found out.

i end work at 10 but gotta do house keeping and briefing till 10.20+. and they waited for me hard. took funny pic with a stationary item, Garfield. mom suggested that we pose with Gar, haha..and passerby actually look at us like retard?!! haha but we really enjoy picture-ing and laughting ourself out. Didnt had a good laught for sometime so.. it soften my mood =))))

i miss you mom..i miss you friends.

p.s: pics will be up soon

mayb things will really sort out by it self. that is wad you said :" let nature take its place."

i really dunno wad have i done wrong or did wrong!

suddenly she is pretty cold to me. at first she start off with not talking to me when she come to work place. she only ask for things that she's here for then walked off to other side.she went off didnt even say a BYE to me! this is super unusual. we used to be super good back in sch..we shared everything on our way home. we always wave and talk crap or shout acrossed the block. when she saw me on 2nd floor, she would came down and talk to me! bball training was full of laughter beside the serious part. we always head out for dinner or lunch. and sometimes she would come sch early to company me for my lunch break. or wait for me to end work on weekend!! i miss those..

out of sudden..juz 1 month of hols things changed. i dont know why she choose to be cold to me. i really duno i asked her she said nothing.

i sense something wrong and confront her on someday where we happen to be working together. i reached the work place, she didnt even talk to me! worst. we didnt talk for hours. till the very hour she's heading home, i confront her and ask

"is there some misunderstanding between us? or something's wrong?"

she smiled: " huh? (haha) no la.. nothing happen.."

"but how come you're like so cold to me? didnt talk to me etc."

"(haha) really nothing happend between us( gave me a smile) ok i gotta go le.. bye."

*****

i wasn't satisfied with the ans, therefore i msg her again:

"are you sure thingys is fine between us? coz you are cold towards me."

"ya things are pretty fine between us. i got no time for unneccessary stuff. due to work (blah blah blah)..."

(thinking) UNNECCESSARY STUFF?!! she is saying that i'm unneccessary stuff?? hell.

replied "but juz now at work we didnt even talk!?"

"mayb got no topic to start off with ba. i dont wish to start a topic and end it no where of the conversation. beside you also didnt talk to me, so i think it's fine too that i didnt talk to you."

there.can you sense the senses between us?? she deny every feeling. now the worst part is here.

we went out on sat. we hardly talk, she hardly look at me when i talk, no expression, no smile, NOTHING!!!!!

what is this? we seriously didnt talk to each other..sam did most of the talking, and she smile and laught at things she said!! after shopping, company them to their trainin. when she saw her teammate, she start smiling. and talk to them non-stop. this pretty annoyed me. there she's with me she didnt breathe a single word. when she saw her friend, she looked relieve and cheerful. goons.

if it was back during sch days, i'm pretty sure she would be beside me companying me talk to me blah blah, but now?!! she said she got nothing to talk to me, i'm her friend for 2 years, same sch same cca gone thru almost the same thing in sch. And they were her bball teammate (i was one too) she got tones of topic with them and said none with me.

i really dont wad she is thinking now. she used to said that she scare we'll drift apart i told her wont. Now i'm not the one to drift. SHE is the one to let go this friendship. before graduate, she keep saying is really hard to meet up le..must learn to let go and stuff.

we juz grad for ONE bloody month and she's super DUPER COLD to me lA!! ask her wad have i done? wad i do wrong, she kept silent. and give a reason saying coz no topic. i doubt that is the reason..there muz be something behind this.

practially i cried at night when i think back to how we used to be back sch and now the coldness.

late post.. sorry

`right.


great i just saw this note from the blog.


4 May 2007: Old Blogger physically dismantled

WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

guess mayb i'll change to livejournal?

`love.

i love my love.

think something's wrong with the blog?
of mayb something's wrong with my blog??

well everything is not in place like how it used to be!!!
god.
i juz hate the way my posting page look like.
the typing space is small.
man.
wth.

i miss my inspiration to blog.
i'm so lost in work that i forget to add spice to my blog.
sad.
so soooooooo dull in here.
and i've totally no life now.
but definately my working friend is always there to cheer me.
they always so noisy and crack jokes around.
especially my friend guili.
she love to ATTACK us from behind with a poke at the waist.

oh fXXX.
i cant change the colour of my text and bold them too..
click : error on page.
wth!!!

my post sure gonna be SUPER BORED!!!!!

`pardon me.



















envelope : $5 only.






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honey tried her luck and got it full set for me. love and sweet.

"bought by noi honey"