The things you’ve said, had plant it’s roots in my heart. (I) loved you so deep, that’s why (my) would hurt. The memories are rolling in my heart. Is it right that everyone is as stupid as me.
(I’m) scared to ask again. It’s too harsh on the both of us. I can feel another person. I’m waiting for the smiles to become tears. When love is in the mist of collapsing, it’s more real.
(There are) too much questions. (I) know what’s the answer going to be. Actually tolerating doesn’t need talent. Just need to love the wrong person. Heartache is more real then happiness. Why does love (have) this kind satire. I’ve forgotten how many times I’ve been unable to keep it together when I see you. Loneliness is more real then an embrace. Love makes people lose (their) rationality. Am I being too selfish for rejecting more lonelier days.
(I) cannot let go nor see (my) future. Could it be that this imperfectness is what love really is. (There are) too much questions. (I) know what’s the answer going to be. Actually tolerating doesn’t need talent. Just need to love the wrong person. Heartache is more real then happiness. Why does love (have) this kind satire. I’ve forgotten how many times I’ve been unable to keep it together when I see you.
Loneliness is more real then an embrace. Love makes people lose (their) rationality. Am I being too selfish for rejecting more lonelier days.
Loneliness is more real then an embrace. Love makes people lose (their) rationality. Am I being too selfish for rejecting more lonelier days.
(I) cannot let go nor see (my) future. Could it be that this imperfectness is what love really is.
12:45 am♥
if you realise,
i did not eat much recently.
no appetite
trying to shed my tummy off
trying not to feel flabby.
you might not notice but
it just hit a big impact on me
causing everything to be as blant as water can be.
you might not wanna know
words.
picture says it all,
but words hit it off.
it can be as harsh as what a picture is showing
it is noticable that i try to escape every now and then,
this way, i wont be in a misery
this way, i have my own fairyland
this way, i can be happier
this way, i can remain at where i want the time to stop.
things been repeating for month
if it were to happen again,
i dun mind repeating because i know which are the days that is happy, i will try to savour it.
the days that are bad, i'll try to mend it and make it better else skip it.
i hate spinning in the same spot forever
but i'm indecisive
bear with it.
12:31 am♥
i guess i have grown up. no more fling for me(quit) thou i keep wanting to find excitment, but fling is not my type now despite i used to fling alot in the past.
it have never even occure in my mine before since 2009 starts. is a good thing i would say.
people say, if you found the right person in life, or if u love that person alot, you are willing to change anything for her :) i did!
i very much admit the days when i was flinging, was really happening happening does not means i sell my soul but the fear of being caught, the sneakiness, the chance to meet up, really got me busy and fun.
but i don't miss any of it now.
i'm very happy with you now thou, but i guess my dad flip through my bag and found some pic with love, well nvm.. haha but sometimes i really got annoyed and feel like just bring a BF home so that he wont keep ranting..~
i wont hide that things been going round my mind frequently, around and around making me tired of everything i guess. but this feeling suck big time!
12:20 am♥
Thursday, January 07, 2010
sometimes i just don't understand friends
both working in the same factory
both got the same pay day
today is 7th, and you have not receive the pay, so is she
why do you have to keep asking her when are you getting the pay?
why must to transfer the money to you and when you get the pay, you transfer back?
why cant you just bloody hell wait??
she is not the one giving out the pay nor she is the boss for the factory
you got no money, is not her responsiblilities to transfer her own saving to you.
you are in need of money, THAT IS YOUR FREAK PROBLEM!!
she dont owe you.
you did not save it for rainy days, THAT IS YOUR FREAK PROBLEM TOO!!
[[pissed like mad]]
keep disturbing and pester her for money FOR WHAT SHIT!!
can't you just wait?
bloody hell!
she is not going to eat up your pay or what so.
cant just keep your foul mouth shut
just keep calling and make noise.
F**Ker!!!
if she is not the one don't let me contact you
i'll just msg you and blast you off!
8:49 pm♥
i'll do anything to get to anywhere
studying for UT2 now
so boring..
planned to study since tues but i take it for granted that i'll finish study real fast.
another UT2 on monday
gotta start studying on Fri (maybe)
or sat since i'm not working for this weekend =)
nothing much today
except to drop by kovan with love to renew her family contract for starhub
and she got herself a phone too
nice exploring :)
8:31 pm♥
i mean it just like how this word look so real in it.
1:28 am♥
HAPPY BELATED 2010 PEOPLE!!!
got this super late post as i got no time to update it.....
resolution for 2010: - flat my tummy - cut down on crackers - tolerate my itchy mouth which keep looking for things to chew at night - be more lovely - be more patiance - GET A LIFE!! - stay lovely - cont getting love from my sisters(mic & pts) - make more time for thing i wanna do - keep exploring places i wanna go to - **save money for braces!!! - be more sociable - pass al my UTs - go to club at least ONCE!!! - Make up my mind and be more decisive!!!
above are some of my wishes for this year be it coming through or not, the ending lies in me to depend on whether i wanna make it HAPPEN or NOT.
What is F.R.I.E.N.D.S?
i'll do anything to get to anywhere
i mean it just like how this word look so real in it.
