Thursday, May 27, 2010
my sweetest love
i know i love you in many many unexplained ways.
but, do you know?
i am very sure you do =D
you are the sunshine in my life.
whenever i'm sad, i know you will be there for me.
even though is some minor arguements in us,
we will be angry and back face each other.
but i know we are not angry with each other,
but angry with ourselves for being bad to each other and getting angry with each other.
ytd u left me alone downstairs.
i'm at fault.
i know you didnt do it on purpose because you came back down after that
and i know it in my hear that you are very very sorry for doing that =D
though i already left,
the moment you call me,
i know it straight that you hate yourselve.
dun be, silly.
just promise that you wont throw me alone ever again.
*promised*
12:46 am♥
Friday, May 21, 2010
i read my friend, Charmaine's blog, and i love the word her friend told her.
"Our day gotta be filled with SHIT sometimes, then can be happy days be all the more worth rejoicing. Sometimes we drive on the road of life innocently, and people will just throw their trash on us but we gotta take it as a pinch of salt."
Not everything will go the way we plan, and her friend said: "Just treat them like 'farting'! " i like it!! =D Continue " the toxin in them is too poisonous, they just gotta let it out. If you pick up everyone's shit, you will end up smelly and bitter."
"But we don't neccessary have to take them in and let the shit rest in pur hearts."
At one point of time, i am so angry with someone in particular, but after reading her post, i'm smiling and all the word make sense. And i realise i've been wasting my time making my heart feel angry and get nothing done. What a waste.
Thanks Charmaine for sharing what your friend said to you =)
2:21 pm♥
Friday, May 14, 2010
if we have........
-airplane, we will fly across the pacific ocean and round the earth
-a chance to see a close up shooting stars, i wont mind fly the airplane up in the skies.
-a chance to make wishes, i would make it when i'm close up to the shooting stars so they can hear me better.
-the chances to see airplain that are like shooting stars, i'll hug you to the fullest, look into your eyes and say "iloveyou"
12:28 am♥
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
in my previous post,
i mention i kinda miss the friend of mine and i kinda lost it.
but that does not i mean i don't miss the rest of my friends
i missed all my friend.
my ITE friend,
Even though i'm in poly now, i still misses my friend as we are no longer close like how we use to be.
i have 4 classes so far, but i only keep in touch with my year 2 sem 1 friend and is only 3 of them.
the rest of my friend all become my Hi-Bye friend which is something i am upset about.
In year 1, things were so happening. everywhere i go, we smile and say HIIIII.
but now,we pretend we never see each other, we never chat nothing!
10:57 am♥
Friday, May 07, 2010
F.R.I.E.N.D.S
how nice it is to have your own group of friends who is always by your side,
giving you entertainment
supporting you
be there for you
have a sense of belong.
how i wish i have all this too
but,
i'm not as lucky as most of you
my friends have long gone.
i am starting not to know the meaning of having friends anymore.
for i dont feel it anymore.
how to make friend?
how to communicate with friend?
how to get friend that you can laugh with?
i am always finding.
but i really not know how to make af friend anymore
people are getting more and more fake
i'm confuse by which side of you is the REAL you.
which side of you can be TRUSTED.
are you really my friend? or you trying not to be so bad by dumping me else where and walk away?
i guess i no longer trust the word FRIEND.
till somebody show me what is the real meaning of friend.
12:20 am♥
Sometimes i felt so lonely,
just to wish that.....
- i have somebody when i'm alone
- know i can contact you with i'm down and lost
- know you will always be ther person i can relay on
- know you will always be there for me
- know no matter what happen to us, you never lost your way to know
- know why i cant social with you
- know why i cant social with everybody
- know why i'm alone most of the time
- know where i belong.
sometimes in life,
it just feel so down down down
down to a limit where i want to hide me self to this little corner where nobody can find me
till then, when someone found me, the person will hug me tight and ask me not to ever make myself disappear again.
even if the person who found me is a friend, how i wish i will hear it from you.
how i wish someone can tell me i'm somehow important. but till this point, no.
i know i am not at all important.
things wont be a slight different without me, it might even get better with me not around.
sometimes i wonder what am i doing here,
be people's burden
waste all the resources
waste your time knowing me
somwtime, how i wish i can just disappear.
even if i do, nobody will even notice a slight different and they dont even know i'm not there anymore. or maybe, people dont even know my exist!
12:05 am♥
Thursday, May 06, 2010
was browsing through when i came across this picture
i smiled.
thinking back how good last time was
how we stand and be there for one another
whenever we are sad, we know there will always be a supporter at the back giving you shoulder, tissue and giving you support.
but things wont be the same anymore.
we are not sure if the support is still there
or only left pieces of tissue just like how a soccer match end and all it left wad rubbish and layer of dust.
nothing can go back to last time, where we use to joke and smile at every comment we made.
i miss those friendship we build over a year.
but somehow, sad to say, this friendship, i somehow find it hard to feel it anymore.
we once said,
-no matter what happen, we will be there for each other
-a shoulder to lean on to cry
-a pair of ears for you to rant about your unhappiness
-a smile for you to share your joy
i know it well that all this is very hard to get back
and wont ever be the same
i admit, i have lost a friend.
but still, i hope you can always find a reason to SMILE =)
and i'll still be here is you need a ears to rant during your down time.
need a companion, i'll still try to be there....
11:55 pm♥
