if i have a chance
i wanna spread my wing and fly ت

tu me manques{imissyou}

candy
stupidly lost.


love to go overseas
stay by the beach
listen to loud music
love grands
love friends
love ♥
tanning like mad



Wish for...

Ape bag

Sports bagpack( addidas, nike, onewell)

Chanel(Chance Eau Tendre)

Ipod touch

Pull over / jacket

`hungry



i am feeling hungry late at night most of the time.
sigh.
i guess coz i didnt had my lunch and dinner most of the time.



i'm such a poor rat.
nothing to eat.
or rather lazy with food.
haha



but i still eat snacks
like
`ice cream
`crackers
`carbo stuff.



FATTENING LA!!!!!!!








*********************



`warriors out.



sat was fun!
finally the 7 warriors can meet up once again after so super long time.
as usual,
we laught out lond.
is really loud lor.
i felt damn ps la.
but use to it le.
haha


funny incident:
candy went to apply singtel line and we got nothing to do,
so we stay outside shop to take pics and more pics.
after tt angela suggested tt we take group pic using a table for a stand
and i start removing the table and chairs.
then angela said,



"wah..your house ar? haha anyhow move ppl stuff?!!!"



we had our 6 warrior pic first coz candy still settling her line stuff.
when she done, we ask her over to take pic.
and we were all squating down coz of the table.
then end up the staff came over and help us take pic.



after the first pic,
the guy ask if we wan a 2nd shot,
thx to su xian.
she say " ok ok..take one more shot lor"
THX LOR.



but turn out the 2nd pic look nicer.
just as we walked past the photo machine,
we develope out the pictures.
with borders too.
pretty pretty~

`crushing down

i dont know why but things seems to go wrong.
and can nv be right again.

hope i yearn for the past.
where everything where great and laughter every where.

we meet up in sch
even between lesson!

we have endless topic
but the journey home is always too fast.

i wish for the time to tune back.
but i can never happen.

and now
my eyes tear at the thought of if.

`hugs AND MISSES

i wanna hugs my mom the next meet up
i wanna hugs my kor kor the next meet up
i wanna hug pin pin (very much) the next meet up..
hehe..

I MISS ALL MY CLASSMATES AND FRIEND.
I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH
THAT I WISH TO GO BACK TO SCH LIFE!!!!
I MISS DISTURBING MY CLASSMATE
I MISS TALKING TO THEM
I MISS LISTENING TO THEIR JOKES AND GOSSIP
I MISS VISITING STAFFROOM AFTER SCH(SOMETIMES)

`web after rains.

`panorama

`barbie lovers

watched one for the ch 8 show ytd night,
they found this lady owner who own 200 barbie dolls.
all of a unique outfit,
is kinda one and only in asia or world!!!

some of the dolls she spend more then hundred just to buy them for collection.
she had been collecting barbie doll since 12 years old.
when her mom first bought her a barbie for her birthday,
and she thought it was very pretty and from then on,
she start collecting.

and she found out that there is actualy a designer for barbie in singapore!
where she can describe her own barbie to him, Mr. Freddy Tan.
he's the designer who design your doll according to your own wish!!
and all the dolls in import from other countires!

he has a webby too!!
click here

`starlight starbright

i love looking up at the stars up in the skys
coz they always shines.

i never felt lonely
whenever you are bright.

thou you are far away
but you give me light.

i wish you are here
to kiss me goodnight.


**i miss the night where we sat under the sky
and many stars were blinking above us.
those where great memories that i'll always kept in my heart.

`got it.

at last i manage to plead my dad for the sony phone.
and he onmly lend to me for 2 weeks!!!!
wth.
cant he juz let me have the phone??
i use it is better for him to keep in the drawer and rot.
i did told him this and he dont give a damn.

what is wrong for me having use tt phone?
i mean since my bro cant use,
then i juz borrow and use la.
rather then let it spoilt in the cardboard.

i might consider buy one instead.
hrump.
unreasonable.

`canon IXUS 70

`lizard

did i mention that on sat midnight,
i accidentally step on the lizard tail??
wad BLOODY shit la.
but as it was midnight.
I CANT SCREAM!!!!
i think i was pretty cool thou,
remain very very calm.
i stare at the floor for seconds,
then i saw this baby lizard crawling on the floor not far away.
i thought i step only ladybird!
thank godness i wasnt
coz i might consider rubbing my skin off.
haha.

`periods

`spagetti splendid

`swim

today sun was blasting.
head down to yck swimming pool
shiok.
suntanning wasn't enough.
wanter to head pool again tomolo but gotta work at 2pm to 10pm.
hmm..
nvm..wallet tight so more work more pay right.



face burn red.
an ice shower is wad i need now.
a slurpy ice cold rootbeer is all i need.

`sour bitter sweet.

finally i get to receive hugs from your embrace.
it's warm and sweet.
i long for the kisses
to be plant on mine.

our eyes met
i blushed.
i dont why
somehow i felt this is the first time again.

i watched your liping as u speak.
i smile as you peak on my cheek.
i felt the connetion between
i really do.

but the night fell fast.
for it's dark once more.
i hate the time for ticking so fast.
i just hope it stop for once.

just one night
i wish for sleeps next to me.
to hugs me again
and a forehead kiss.

`no words to describe

been a slackful week for me.
nothing to do for the whole week except on wed and sunday.
working day.
this cant go on.
i sure gotta get a job and register my course.
hmm

next week i'm going to plan all
i'll plan it on sunday.

bless me.

song: Hurt
singer: Christina Aguilera


Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't to do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

`pissed.
off mood.

i don't know what is wrong with ppl today.
all kinda piss me damn off.
f***

ppl ignore me
ppl slp when i reach home dun even bother to wait up
ppl gave me hope and cancel off.
call ppl dun even wanna pick up, off to bed without telling too.
-i dont what is wrong with you guys or rather waht is wrong with ME!!!!-

PISSED.
PISSED.
PISSED.

-see me like ignore me, dun bother to talk to me much, avoid me eyes contact, a relactant byes.i'm transparent. just way too great.
QNS: what did i do wrong to get this from you??? just didnt meet up for 3 days and things change. i have no harm thoughts in here. i'm just blur with your body language.

-i dont know what the hell she do whole day after her work. slack? lazy around? why cant you just go take a nap and company till midnight special??? hell. everyday is the same.

-i didnt reply your msg and you bite me back. dun wanna tell me you went off to bed, not a single msg. fine. that's just FINE! shall see if you msg me tomorrow morning. and i might consider ignore ALL your msg.
p/s: i know i'm a fault for this. dun wanna reply your msg. and now you got my tactic for not replying msg. great!.

sorry but i'm just very very very very PISSED off for no particular reason.coz i dont see all this coming.
maybe periods coming. hate me.


luckily i still got my work friend
guili.
she entertained me.
and i entertained her too.
(with 2 paper)
haha.

`princess

many of us wanna LOOK like princess,FEEL like princess, being LOVED like a princess, being SERVED like a princess.
but being a princess can be easy AND can be difficult.

being a princess:
.noble
.selfless
.humble
.kind
.trusting and faithful
.respectable and admirable
***
.posture
.listen attentively
.speaks-choose her word carefully
.refrain from bragging or boasting.

those are the basic.
look yourself into the mirror
see if u have the criteria
and judge if YOU are a princess.

`a fixed.


okay. finally i made up my mind.
i aint going to sign for my child psycologist
though it sure gonna be some good career for me to stay touch with those childrens and kids.
they are adorable.
but i have to think long term and get a certified cert.

so i'm heading for MDIS instead.
tourism and hospitality management.
great.
cant wait to get sign up n further my studies this way.

all this gotta thanks my sis for her advise.
hopefully i can get pass for this cert and start my career three years later.

**********************

`a jog

was surprised that i managed to run 2 round around my house estate after slacking down for exercise for super long period!
thought i would gave up half way or so, but instead of feeling tired, i felt great and yearn for more runs till i reached my garden to cool off.

stretching for 1/2 hour.
really tone my muscle.
now feels super relax after all my muscle flex.

**********************

nothing much actually then.
i miss my honey.
tomolo gonna see her again.
hurray.*jump jump*

`study

when to educational fair last sat.
with noi n yuan.

head to this "arium education" booth and enquire those info like sch fees, study hours/days, career prospects etc.
after much knowledge on her course, they ask if i saw any course i wanna sign.
i answered i do not have any much plans for all the courses here.

after walking for one big round, we head back the arium booth again.
this time is i enquire courses on child psychology.
the courses were pretty interesting thou.
what's more, it's always something i wanna do to help those autism kids/special kids


www.ariumedu.com/



was deciding should i go for this course.
think got 85%

`a promise

you once made me felt as thou you said this word:

"hold my hand, feel my beat, i'll lead you on as long as you are with me"

thank god now i'm still with you
happily.

i still wanna hold your hand,
tighter this time.
i still wanna feel your beat,
a little more this time.
i still wanna be with you,
as long as you are mine.

when i meet up with you,
i never wanna let you go.
i wish the time could just stop right there,
and spare me a little bit more time.
i can never spend enough time being with you.

all the laughter,
all the kisses.
i can never get enough of it.
you gave me once,
i want twice,
and thrice coming.

i wan to spend every enjoyable moment with you.
i wan my life story filled with your picture in my album.
my mind filled with your soul.
i think of you day and night.
there was never a day that i failed to remember your face.
your image flood my thoughts.

i simpily cant live without you no more.
i wanna grow old with you.
my love.

nasty`

i am going to kiss you whenever i saw you
if oneday you were not around
i will yearn for more kisses the next time i meet you.


how i wish tt you are the first person i see early in the morning.
the first person i talk to in the morning
the first thing my lips touch in the morning is your kiss.
soft and sweet

a kiss is...



She lifted her delicate, high-bred face, fearing love shining in every lineament, to his, and they exchanged their first kiss.

Platonic friendship is the interval between the introduction and the first kiss.

a kiss could make you happy and smile whole day long.

`i miss all.

i miss the special you!

`been a long 3 days.

my girlfriend.
i shout:

RACHEL T. i miss you.

heh.


X)))) <3<3<3

`good for a change. mayb.


when i was way younger, i always have this think that wouldn't it be cool if i'm a guy!?
i can go out freely, as and when i like.
with no time limitation.

in the middle of the night,
with just a phone call from a friend ask to go out eat supper,
okay set!.
isnt that just cool.
hai, but i have to accept the fact that i'm a girl.
final.

but being a guy must have huge responsibilities, good education for future career, must serve NS, cannot scare of anything (bold), must protect girlfriend, pamper her etc. so troublesome.

being a girl is still the best somehow. can doll up, pampered by boyfriend, receive gifts blah blah..


wish i can just head out without fearing will my parents scold.
but i know they care and worry at the same time.
coz the night is dark, way too dark for "wolf" to pawn on.


afterall, the night is still beautiful if you get a chance to sit by the seaside, lay down on the cold sand and stare up into the sky. tiny stars are blinking like they trying to tell you something, but you can never hear them for they are too far away from us. luckily. they may represent some symbols but is hard to guess for they are just a twinkle little stars in our eyes.

` Music Edition.

way back into love-hugh grant haley bennett


guess i'll have to plan my everyday life a colourful one.
i really need colours lar!!!
i want super loaded snapshot
i wanna post beautiful pictures about nature everyday and the picture must be taken by me.
i wanted to have a healthy and balance menu for every meal.
i wanna earn bucks so i can buy the jeans that i wanted, the clothes that i needed and stuffs that i settled.
i want my everyday life to fill with love.
i wan peace with all my friend and be chattable.

sometimes, i just feel like ignoring everything.
let you be what you wanna be.
but i'll feel a cringe of jealous for all the fun you enjoyed.
i wanna let you feel love too.
and you said you have received plenty from me. =))
i love you gf.

it's been 5 hell days since i last saw her, last hugged her, last kissed her.
miss her superb.miss her salivas too. yucks.
no time for calls too coz working.
by the time i reached home, she is tired n heading for bed.
sad.
((all craves to be mend on thursday.))


a drink day for us including my honey noi.
ton over at noi house.
hope dino wont disturb.
he's being annoying big time.
but sometimes he's cute as long as he dun bark and shows "grrrr"
haha.

`puRe fResh


had a brand new start in life.
i gonna set my goals and get things plan.

wanted to head down my area for a morning run.
ended up i shut my phone when it rang,
gf nv phone me.
rats.
stayed home and do some stretching, skipping, crunches, dumbbelling.
feels good.
had 200 jump. 100 per shot.
guess i'll have to repeat that everyday,
1hr work out to keep myself fit.

after work out,
i had cereal for breakfast.
apple for munch while crouching on my sofas.

watch recorded shows till 2.30pm.
head to kitchen to cook noodles for lunch.
thx for my sis, for helping me was cabbage and gave my 2 pathetic fry prawns
though i had some for my noodles.

time was 2.55, headed to bath n dress up for work.
slurping away my noodles as fast as i could.

reached earlier then i expected.
good.
but the first time kelly said was:

kelly: " candy i got a very important task for you."
me: " what?"
kelly: "can you help me throw away the cartons?"
me: " (-_-)''' alright, i thought something more important."
ailing: " kelly you very bad wor, people first day here you ask her go throw cartons."
kelly: " what, throwing cartons is important task alright =) ."

at 5+ noi honey came down looking for me.
and company me too =)))))
head out for break though is only half an hour for me, but by right there is no break inbetween.
haha.
she stayed on and company me till 9pm.
and headed home.
isn't that sweet of her?!! =))

me work all the way till 10.
headed home with dardar.

found this nicklachey web. there u can listen to his songs.

NickLachey

is a must listen song.


What's Left of Me Lyrics
Music Artist: Nick Lachey Album: What's Left of Me

Watch my life,
Pass me by,
In the rear view mirror
Pictures frozen in time
Are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

Yeah...

[Chorus]
Cause I want you,
And I feel you,
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger,
Like a burning,
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken,
And I'm faded,
I'm half the man I thought I would be:
But you can have what's left of me

I've been dying inside,
Little by little,
No where to go,
But going out of my mind
In endless circles,
Running from my self until,
You gave me a reason for standing still

[Chorus]

It's falling faster,
Barely breathing,
Give me something,
To believe in
Tell me: It's not all in my head

Take what's left
Of this man
Make me whole
Once again

[Chorus]

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?
Just running in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?

"Runaway Love" - ludacris
(feat. Mary J. Blige)

[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love

[Verse 1 - Ludacris]
Now little Lisa is only 9 years old
She's trying to figure out why the world is so cold
Why she's all alone and ain't never met her family
Mama's always gone and she never met her daddy
Part of her is missing and nobody will listen
Mama is on drugs getting high up in the kitchen
Bringing home men at different hours of the night
Starting with some laughs -- usually ending in a fight
Sneaking in her room while her mama's knocked out
Trying to have his way and little Lisa says 'ouch'
She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her
Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her
Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get some clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.

[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love [x8]

[Verse 2 - Ludacris]
Little Nicole is only 10 years old
She's steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
Why she's not pretty and nobody seems to like her
Alcoholic step-dad always wanna strike her
Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises
Teachers ask questions she making up excuses
Bleeding on the inside, crying on the out
It's only one girl really knows what she about
Her name is lil Stacy and they become friends
Promise that they always be tight 'til the end
Until one day lil Stacy gets shot
A drive by bullet went stray up on her block
Now Nicole stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get her clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.

[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love [x8]

[Verse 3 - Ludacris]
Little Erica is eleven years old
She's steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
So she pops x to get rid of all the pain
Plus she's having sex with a boy who's sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks she's in love
So there's no protection he's using no glove
Never thinking 'bout the consequences of her actions
Living for today and not tomorrow's satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he ain't ready for a kid
Knowing her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say she's about to run away and never come back.

[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love
Don't keep on runnin'
Runnin' [4x]
Don't keep on running [x]
I know how you feel, I've been there
I was runnin' away too

I will run away with you [2x]

Runaway Runaway Love
Don't keep running away
I'll run away with you, if you want me too

[Outro - Ludacris:]
Yea, I can only image what you're going through ladies,
Sometimes I feel like running away myself,
So do me a favor right now and close your eyes,
And picture us running away together,
when we come back everything is gonna be okay,
Open your eyessss.......

mom mom sam missed me alot!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm posting it out big coz

i miss her lot too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

always a hate for a let go`
you might be next.
i'm gonna learn to let go in a graceful way.

`rants


i don't why but start to HATE big time of myself.
i feel like such a junkie.
a useless.


dirty.


my urge to meet up with u,
i kept in my heart,
i dont wanna feel it
touch up on wed.


Bitch.


i wanna be your gf,
but dont wanna spoil it.
iloveMYbunnys.
i still loveMY bunny.


farted`


i felt messy in my brain.
i can imagin all the web juz mess around my head.
all my vein is tangle up.
i cant think clear for once.
i cant resist myself.

i'll try my best.

.krangi park.

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