Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny That I can't even see anyone when he's with me He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right, I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe? And there he goes, so perfectly, The kind of flawless I wish I could be She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light I'll put his picture down and maybe Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do He's the time taken up, but there's never enough And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
1:48 pm♥
This is crazy. my dad actually allows me to go fishing over night with dolph n her dad. cool!
at first he said "of coz not" den i said is with her dad. at bedok jetty n i told him once only n he allows *grins *******************
the unit above us is having renovation SUPER IRRITATING LA!!!!!! bangs n bangs drill n drill
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a mins ago, my sis n bro quarrelled. fight abit. went out to take alook my sis slap him, n he was holding a bag, so he juz slap her with tt. n thx eh, tt was MY BAG!!!!!
but, chew chew aye, they cool off, n now my sis sort of teach him maths lor.
goodness moly!
12:22 pm♥
Monday, March 17, 2008
friends i miss all of you. the pics the laughter the work
i juz miss it.
if i were to choose my past again, i would still choose the same path that i once walked you you guys.
LOVE!
2:03 pm♥
the night was dark breeze was strong we walked down the path hand in hand
the moonlight shine the sky dim we cont our journey home.
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thou the night is quiet the sky turn darker he qns me asking why i always come home late
i walked n heard ur foot step followed behind i waited for u in the middle of the room you pressure me n force qns on me.
you even gave me a hard push n i sat on my bed. i stare at you n you ask why am i staring at you like that i look away
soon later a firm hand juz slap at my face. my brain stop for a moment. "you slap me" keep appearing in my mind. thou this is not the first time he got so angry with me. but this time he juz slap me.. i was super angry anger flare up inside me.
i torlerate. he even said if today he nv see me, mayb wont get so angry!! he even clenched a fits n want to punch me! my mom tried to stop him but he pushed her away real hard. i wan to reached out to support my mom but he grab me by hand. my sis stop him instead.
before everything, he ask if i have any place to stay outside? i answered nope. i was hoping there was a hostel in poly.. den i'll move out. he said i better go check if there's any. i answered nope again.
he nv like me. he dun wish to see me. i'm only a disastrous to them, to the home.
well wad else can i say or do. i dun have the intention to talk to him anymore. he slap me. at my 21st yr.
i'm sad n disappointed. i felt speechless i felt useless.
upon hearing i can go poly, he nv seem happy infact nothing. he felt nothing. n start to nag dunno will i go there to study properly. dun go there play.
everything i do, he'll nv get happy i can go on to poly to get a diploma get a higher pay job but to him, i'm like a failure. to them i'm always a failure.
they always look down on me. i'm nothing to them ever since young, i guess.
i know they aged now when i think back of the past as a kid, i felt happy n sad. happy coz my dad would always play with me n tickle me n i would laught till i cry. sad coz they would still hit me with cane or pinched from my mom.
now i look at them, they really aged. think back homw i spend my 20 yrs, they care for me alot.
i love you.
12:44 pm♥
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
sorry for not updating again.
life is getting some colors now. finally.
pic will be loaded to tell the story.
news of enrolment in poly rise. got in RP for business computing. whereby i wanted sports science.
