Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I wish...I wish....
i know i am not good in anything
that include my language, be it both mandrain and english
but i know i am trying
i just wish that
my afford will be seen
it is not like i am stupid
it is just pure errors
when 3 pairs of eyes are staring at me and my screen
and time is rushing
error is something that cannot be help =(
But i am definately not stupidT.T
3:38 pm♥
Monday, January 24, 2011
sometime, my mood just feel so terribly down. I really hate it when there are so many things crashing down at one time. Project, friends and relationship. the feeling really sucks to the max!!!!
friendship.
i cant help but to feel that sometimes there is nothing for us to talk about with my W.They seems to click so so well.. i feel like the odd one out. though this is not what it really is, and every time they plan outing, they never forget about me. but i am always the one having reason and couldn't meet them. i really feel very upset not to meet up with them. i really love meeting them.. go out with them.. relax with them. the laughter and joy we all share and there is nothing can take them away except for ourselves.
they will be aways for holi to bankok soon, and i can make it as it is still kinda dangerous. all girls and no guy protection, feels scary. but i can imagine so much fun with them.
recently i feel that, i become quieter, less topic to share with my friend. seldom go out with them too or hang around after sch or during breaks. could it be they forgotten about me? but some times i still cant help it but to think that i got nothing to talk to them about.
i feel so helpless when they are happily talk and chatting while i am the one keeping quiet and join in the laughter.
am i really that quiet? it really dun feels like me. where is the chatty me? gone? forever? this is not what i want to be. i wanna hang around with my friends. i wanna have plenty things to chat with them.
i dont wanna keep silent and eventually vanish in their world.
1:04 am♥
I wish...I wish....